LONG GONE | T.K FF

◇ Game Night ◇

Okay so I'm changing something... I know I made it where Tae had two personalities but him with two wont work for the story and its plot I guess so I'm gonna like make it where V disappears I dont know it will happen when happens I'm trying to figure it out. Sorry if you guys really wanted V.

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Taehyung's p.o.v

For the past week I have been getting these messages from unknown people, it would be so random in the day and they would always say, 'ugly,stupid,faggot,fat' And many more I'd rather not say but one more I will say that really has been getting to me is they would tell me 'kill yourself! No would care if you were gone not even your boyfriend.'

I try not to think of it I would cry over them every once in a while and Jungkook would always ask what's wrong and of course I would lie. I don't want him knowing about this, he already goes through enough with me, he shouldn't worry about this too.

At the moment I'm bawling my eyes out in the bathroom in our dorm. Jungkook left to go hang out with the group. He wanted me to come but I denied. I was not up to fun at this time. A couple minutes ago I got a message that said 'why dont you cut some more, I miss seeing you suffering, your body is already ugly, it wouldn't hurt.' Yep I was bawling over that. Is it stupid? maybe, I dont know, I have cut my whole life.

These past couple weeks I have stopped cutting and it was because Jungkook. I was fighting with myself right now. I got out a razor and set it down on the counter. I dont want to do it but I just had the urge. I tried reaching put to V but he hasn't 'talked' to me. Last Friday I was hanging with Jungkook and the group at a café and some guys came up to us with their girlfriends I think.

They definitely went to our University because they knew who we were and they threw their drinks and food all over me and laughed. V got so pissed that he came out before I can tell him to stop and he beat one of the guys up. And let me tell you it scared the shit out of their friends and even mine. I was so embarrassed I ran home and screamed at him to stop ruining everything I had.

From that point on he hasn't made clear of his 'presence' and just stopped reaching out. I hurt him but I still believe he deserved it, he scared my friends. That's most of the reason I didnt want to hang with them today.

In other words I was alone. Taetae would just cry and make me feel worse so here I am fighting with myself. If I did it I would upset Jungkook. But if I didn't do it I wouldn't have any relief. I looked down at the razor and then back at the mirror. "J-just a fe-few." I told myself and grabbed the razor. I sighed and let more tears fall.

I pulled up my shorts a little and got the razor ready to cut. I sobbed. "I-Im sorry kook." But then I suddenly stopped. No I cant do this. I made a promise to Jungkook that I wouldn't do this and I'm not breaking that promise. I sniffled and hid the razor in the same spot.

I walked out of the bathroom and laid down in my room.

*Ding*

I didnt want look. What if it was someone again. I closed my eyes.

*Ding*

Another ding. I can't take this why wont they leave me alone. I am already broken. Why are they breaking me more?!.

*Ding*

Then I thought. What if it was Jungkook. I slowly grabbed my phone and looked at my notifications. I sighed in relief knowing now that it was Jungkook.

Bunny🐰
Tae baby how are you doing?

Bunny🐰
I just want to check on you.