Your legs lightly shake while both of your hands held tightly on the metal railings on each side. You were currently on therapy to help you get used to walking again everyday. You've had enough to help you get used to walking once in a while but it was quite hard for you having it everyday.
"You're doing great, Y/N-chan. Just a little more." The doctor on the side encouraged you. You gave him a shaky smile but your eyes narrowed as you looked forward again, determined to finish today's therapy.
As you reached the end you released a sigh of relief but ended up falling on the floor with folded knees.
You gulped and sucked in a breath, stopping your tears from falling before trying to get up on your own even when the nurse and doctor offered their help for you to stand up. "I-I can do it myself. Thanks."
You grunted while you held on the metal railings for assistance as you lift yourself up. Just as you stood, your legs gave out again and luckily, both of them caught you before your knees could make contact with the ground again.
Oikawa could only watch with sad eyes. He bites his lips, he could see and feel your pain through your eyes no matter how you smiled. Your frustration was there, he could totally see it even through the glass window. Iwaizumi placed a comforting hand on his shoulder after he glanced at him at the corner of his eyes. "Be strong for her, Trashykawa."
He only released a dry chuckle and looked back at you. You were currently being gently seated on your wheel chair and led outside the therapy room, on your way back to your room.
Once your wheelchair was outside, Oikawa took the initiative to push your wheelchair as his other hand ruffled your hair.
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Iwaizumi left a couple minutes after you reached your room just in time your mother arrived with packed dinner for everyone, even for the doctors and nurses that takes care of you, even Iwaizumi got one.
"I also got one ready for Yuu-kun. I'm sure he would arrive a few minutes later." She giggled as she placed the packed dinner on the table. You looked down on your food as you replied, "You shouldn't have. I told him not to drop by for tonight."
She glanced at you in curiosity as she asked why but you couldn't answer. Thankfully, your cousin had your back, "That's because little N/N told me she wanted to have quality time with the bestest cousin that she loves so much!"
You muttered, "'Bestest' isn't even a word." You sent your cousin a thankful smile while he replied with a wink.
"Oh, is that so? Then, I'll be leaving. Toru-kun take care of her!" She said and the both of you replied then, she left the room. You sighed in relief, "Thanks, Toru."
"You owe me an explanation, you know?" He said as he placed his own packed dinner on the side and stood up to sit on your bed. "What's up, little cuz? You've been sighing a lot."
You released another sigh which you know made your cousin more worried but you couldn't help it.
"I feel like my body's getting weaker. But, I can tell it's not the effect of the therapy. I could just really feel it getting weaker than before." You answered honestly. You pulled your knees to your chest and folded your arms on top of it.
"It hurts a lot to think about it but, I regret getting in a relationship with Yuu-kun. Don't get me wrong, I do have feelings for him. I just... I can't match his energy because I'm ill, I can't always be there for him, I can't do what a normal girl could. A normal girl is what he deserves." You ended as you rest your head on your folded arms and hide your face from your cousin. "And all these years, I've been a burden to everyone."
A small sad smile on your lips you added, "I mean, who knows, I can die anytime. Heck, tomorrow isn't even promised for me."
"Y/N, look at me." You heard your cousin's voice turning stern but you didn't obey him. He released a soft breath and called you with a stern voice with a mixture of softness as he placed both his hands on both of your shoulders, "Y/N."
You looked up at him with tears flowing down from your eyes and saw his soft expression while he gently wipes away your tears.
"Listen to me, N/N. Don't say those things. Nishi-chan accepts you for who and what you are and, who am I to say this but, I could see that he doesn't just like you. He loves you, N/N. He does. We do as well. We all love you so much and we have faith in you that you can do it. You can."
You were pulled in an embrace by your cousin while he pats your head in a comforting manner.
"You can cry it all out. I'm here with you."
With that, you did. You wrapped your arms around him tightly and clenched your fists as you held on his back for dear life.
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After a few hours you've already calmed down and the both of you just finished eating dinner that was brought to you by your mom and a little extra that was from the hospital.
It was already getting late as the wall clock pointed it's hour hand on ten, almost eleven.
"Why don't you sing me that song again?" Toru suddenly suggested. "You know, 'Coffee'. The first song you made."
"Why so sudden? The chords of that song are even messed up." You asked as you released a small laugh while you watch him walk towards your guitar on the side.
He sat back on his seat and handed you the guitar. You fixed your position and properly held the guitar on top of your crossed legs as you faced your cousin.
"Please? Do it for your bestest cousin!" He pleaded with a wink but you laughed it off as you placed your fingers on the right starting chord.
You started strumming it while Toru comfortably laid his head on his folded arms on top of your bed.
"Don't stay awake for too long
Don't go to bed
I'll make a cup of coffee for your head
I'll get you up and going out of bed.
And I promise that one day I'll feel fine
And I promise that one day I'll feel alright
And I'll make a cup of coffee
With the right amount of sugar
How you like it
And I'll make a cup of coffee
With the right amount of sugar
How you like it
How you like it
Don't know how long I'll stay for
It's okay, I'll knock on your door
Won't you come down and get me?
I like it when you hold me
Tight
You make me feel nice
The green in your eyes
Makes me feel warm inside
And I'll make a cup of coffee
With the right amount of sugar
How you like it
And I'll make a cup of coffee
With the right amount of sugar
How you like it
How you like it."
After the last chord, you giggled quietly at your cousin that had fallen asleep on top of his folded arms on your bed. You set aside the guitar and softly ran your fingers on his hair as after you settled in a comfortable position.
"Thank you and good night, Toru, dear bestest cousin."
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I've been feeling all emotional because of this book like, daaaamn!
So, the second song I chose for this book to be showed isss, Coffee by Beabadobee. I chose it since it kinda connects to the story and how reader feels, y'know what I mean?
No?
Well, ya'll will find out soon anyways.
