working with tottenham

Part 32

as i calmed down my anger towards him, i patted jace on the back as i strolled around the hallway looking for the elevator. i should have payed attention to how we got up here, i reminded myself to do so next time we go somewhere. as i was coming to the end of the corridor i spotted the lift and started walking faster towards it, i entered just before the doors shut and pushed the button to the ground floor, wanting to explore the facilities.

as the lift was slowly going down, i had chance to move jace into a more comfortable position in my arms. i decided to take my cardigan off which i put on back in the hotel room and wrap it around him just in case he was cold. when the sound for the lift reaching the ground floor went off, i strolled out and noticed how expensive everything looked in here.

"wow" i thought to myself, i would never have been able to stay in a place like this without dele. i smiled at the thought of him and what we used to do together back in England. i shook that thought to the side as i spotted a huge pool in the foreground, no one was currently swimming in it as all the boys were upstairs most likely unpacking their suitcases. which dele won't have done.

i suddenly felt a the need to have a cup of coffee from the cafe, i had been trying to stick away from them as they cause havoc to my sleeping patterns. i reached the bar, and noticed a young girl, maybe in her teens who was working. she turned around from what she was doing and payed her attention towards me

"ah hello, how can i help you" she spoke, with a clear russian accent, it must be hard for her to deal with different cultures coming in here and ordering different drinks, so i tried to make it as simple as possible.

"could i have, a tall cappuccino please, but without the chocolate sprinkles on the top" i smiled as i asked her politely. skipping out on the chocolate sprinkles would mean that i could have a small pudding later on in the evening when the twins fall asleep. i waited until she had finish making the drink and i took it over to one of the table and chairs and started drinking it, although it was still blazing hot, i couldn't resist the smell of the coffee. i looked down at jace, at his small button nose, his beautiful golden skin. both of the twins were absolute angels, it's a shame Dele didn't seem them like this. i wish he would try and out some effort in with them, i know it's hard for him at the moment since he has so much pressure but i've just had two children and one has only just came out the hospital.

i caressed his skin as his eyes flickered open, and he smiled at me. maybe he was just like me and could smell the coffee, or maybe he was just hungry. which would mean that Faith would be as well, i decided to quickly gulp down the remaining dribbles of my drink and work my way back to the room, if i could find it. i reached the elevator and pressed the button to which floor we were on. it took a while but i eventually made it.

as i stepped out the elevator, the whole team was waiting outside with their girlfriends and wives

harry was the first one to notice me "Elle, how are you?" he asked me and came closer

"ah i'm good, i'm just looking for Del" i smiled at him, while noticing that he wasn't present in the group. which brought happiness to me as i realised he must be in spending time with Faith and noticed his position as a father.

"oh he's just gone to call a taxi, we are going into the town tonight" he replied and the rest of the boys stared at me as my facial expression changed.

"what!" i blurted out and pushed them to the side, rushing towards our hotel room but holding tightly onto Jace. the sudden change in movement alerted him and he started crying. i clicked the key card against the scanner and noticed Faith crying in her travel cot in the corner of the room. i quickly placed Jace down on the bed and picked Faith up from her current position and nuzzled into her, i bent down and brag Jace closer to my chest as well. allowing them both to be near each other. which instantly calmed them down. i perched on the bed and realised and comprehend what had just happened.

Dele. He left our newborn daughter in a room all by herself because he wanted to go out. that was wreck-less and dangerous. what was going through his mind to think that was okay. how selfish of him! guilt suddenly washed over me, maybe i should have just taken Faith and Jace away from him and removed ourselves from the situation. does this make me a bad mother? do they still love me? those thoughts were quickly pushed to the side as the twins notified me that they were hungry and my mother instincts swarmed in as i started breast feeding them one at a time.