I kept on denying it.
A certain fact I could never accept.
How did it happen? When did it start?
That I could never answer...
But one thing I know, I was a little hesitant...
Why do I feel this way?
I did not know.
I love it when he laughs because it made me forget about everything and made me focus all my attention on him.
I love it when he talks and I could just listen to him all day.
I love it when he's doing his own thing and that would make me feel in awe.
I love it when he makes those simple things seem so perfect, oh gosh! He's a gentleman.
How does he make me feel this way? That, I could never answer.
I guess I fell for those simple acts...
...for how he treated me like I'm a lady and that leaves a mark I could never erase.
Yes, I know I tried to deny those facts because I'm a little hesitant...
I know I cannot. I know it is never gonna happen. I am just living in a daydream, a reality that could never exist.
I saw this tweet about a girl stating a happy experience she had with her boyfriend and I suddenly think of you. Questions filled my mind asking, how does it feel when I'm with you? What it'd be like if I'm with you? ... and how does it feel if you are mine?
I smile, a sad smile.
Because deep inside I know it's not gonna happen. I still kept on denying it. A certain fact that could never happen. Despite these feelings I know to him, I was just a passerby, a no one...
Oblivious that these are real...
...that these feelings exist.
03. 10. 19
