Time : 5:19 am
Date : 31st March 2020
Hey there loves,
So judging from the feedback I've decided to go ahead with this book. Mind you, this isn't the best part of me. I have been in a writer's block for so long and writing now feels more like ranting. So before I venture into writing a really good book, this would be my journal, my side that you won't see on any other platform. The side of me that might be intriguing to you.
So what happened today? Right now, this thought just came to mind. Do you realise how easy it is to be manipulated? What even is the truth? Is it just believing the words someone says just because we trust them? Just cause they would never lie?" It isn't just how they are". The most common words said after reality crashes in . That's how badly you can trust someone so much so that you manipulate yourself into thinking they would never do what other people are saying.
I try to see the best version of others. Maybe that's why I try so hard to guard my heart and build up more walls. I am vulnerable, I am soft, I love too hard and I trust too much and that is exactly what messed me up. I trusted way too much , one could even call me a child with the way I just trusted other people.
But let's not get into that. Today, I want to talk about manipulation, truth, and deception. What do all these have in common? Words. The power of words are underestimated. Think about how easily it is for people to fall in love with someone based on what they say or tell them.
We as humans are dangerous and beautiful beings altogether. We destroy each other based on words or what we heard. It's amazing how words can make or break a relationship. This reminds me of the tale of Jekyll and Hyde. I believe that all humans are two faced. Why do I say that?
Let's dive into this shall we?. Think about how we switch our personality with others based on the level of friendship or relation we have with them. Think about how we behave differently with or family and our friends and crush. Just like Jekyll and Hyde, one person who has two personalities, good and evil . I won't dive so much into that, I urge you to go and read more about it. It is truly a fascinating book.
You ever wonder if people actually tell you the truth? If they ae open to you? Or they just tell you what you want to hear just because. As a professional overthinker, I think about all this. Like how parents tell their kids everything is fine when behind the scenes everything is shattering.
So here's a question. Why do we all say we prefer the truth when in reality we actually like being lied to? Because when we are lied to, we believe everything is just amazing. I can feel you disagreeing with me. Don't deny it, You know you love being lied to especially when it brings you happiness. Of course, no one will say this out loud but deep inside you, you know this is the truth. I'll let that sink in with you for a moment.
Have you also wondered how people stay clueless when they are in love? How they become blind to everything. Well, I still haven't found the answer to why people become so blinded when they are in love, It still baffles me. Heck, I've gone through it before and I still don't know why. Maybe it's because that person becomes your happy place.
And then we move on to deception. I sometimes wonder about how and why people lie and get away without any guilty conscience . Is it because it's some type of control or power? Knowing that you can affect someone's mood just because the person values you so much. When we overvalue someone we tend to give them so much control on our emotions and actions. Deceiving someone is just so easy, cause words as I said earlier are powerful, I know we all lie and I guess it's easier to lie than to tell the truth. Why are the easy things always the worst?
Today, I am out of words, I guess my head is in a jumble. My head is filled with so many thoughts that I can't seem to type. Some days, I feel I overthink so much, But how can I change when this is all I've ever known . Why do I call myself messed up? Maybe I'm not but I just like being different because being the same as everyone is just boring to me.
I always try to find what lies deep within people. So this is all over but if you ever wondered why someone changed so much, go read the Jekyll and Hyde thing. The short answer is that they never changed, they've always been that way. I believe that everyone has this innate darkness in them that is just waiting for the perfect time to be let out I know I'm not the only one who has had dark thoughts . And if you haven't , don't think you aren't like that. You are, you just aren't close to it like I am.
And if you think, "Man, this girl has finally lost it." Humour me for a minute, why is it so easy for our thoughts to go to unsettling things when we are sad or angry? Why is it so easy to do crazy things sometimes and then wonder how you were even able to do it cause it just isn't like you? Why is good always fighting evil? And in some cases evil becomes good or vice versa. I might be throwing some crazy ideas and you probably might be spooked but well, welcome to the darker version of this book.
Are you scared yet or are you just intrigued? If it's the latter, then this is the right book for you because my thoughts can be crazy sometimes but they always help me think deeply about stuff sometimes. So ask yourself this today, Do I have a darker side or is Yasmin just being a crazy girl with some weird theories? And if you do have a darker side, don't try to fight it, embrace it and become one because that is what makes you who you are. Darker sides aren't always as dreadful as they sound.
Okay I'm done freaking you out now. How did we come from talking about trust to dark thoughts? I'm sure this run through your mind. Heck, if I know. My mind wanders a lot and this what I felt like typing today so be prepared for anything and everything with this book .Feel free to share your thoughts in the comments and don't hesitate to message me or criticize me. I would love to hear your input on this too. Stay safe loves, and have a wonderful day.
