Black Heart (Her Guardian Demon rewrite)

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I just want to say that if I don't update for a while or my story seems more depressing.... its because I am.

I've been having issues with schizophrenia (hearing voices) and m parents aren't doing anything to help. Not even to help me get meds.

Also my boyfriend is bipolar and suicidal. I triggered a suicide attempt and he's been in the hospital for a week now without having any way to talk to me.

I've gotten to the point where my brain is rejecting all emotions. Period. All my memories of my boyfriend are fuzzy and I can't remember how he sounds. When I talk about him it feels like I'm stating random facts about any topic. And if I see a picture of him it takes a minute to register who it is.
I even forgot that I had a boyfriend for a while.

My first reaction is to talk to someone about it. But no one knows what I should do or how to help. So I've turned to smoking pot to make me feel better.

My dad is going back into a violent mood so I have to hide from him. CPS has already got records of how my dad treats me but no one will investigate. The cops even told me that kids need to get beat sometimes.

I'm sorry to dumping this on everyone. Im getting help so don't worry.

But I want to say. DYING MAY SEEM LIKE THE ONLY WAY OUT BUT IT'S NOT I PROMISE!!!

PLEASE PLEASE REFRAIN FROM DOING THIS!!!

You may not realize but people do care, and it will effect other people in a negative way.

If you are having suicidal thoughts you can talk to me!! Get help!! Please don't make someone suffer like I am... think about the what ifs.