no regrets 。taekai 。

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"what the hell was that." jongin said to himself as he got into his uber and headed home.

it was an unprecedented event and jongin was freaking out.

he'd hugged many people, especially his members. he used to playfully lay on top of junmyeon and hug him to piss the older one out but this was completely different.

jongin's stomach was doing backflips and he couldn't pinpoint why.

he planned to go straight to bed when he reached his room but that was interrupted by a certain someone.

"yixing? what are you doing here? did you text me...?" jongin slowly trailed off when he shut the door and could see that not only was yixing sitting on the couch but other two familiar figures.

"what... what are you guys doing here?" jongin addressed baekhyun and sehun who sat very properly on the leather couch.

"can we talk?" sehun spoke up first.

jongin carefully nodded, keeping his head down as he headed to his room and expected sehun to follow him.

after the younger made his way into the room, jongin closed the door and went towards his bed, motioning for sehun to sit on his desk chair.

"i... " sehun spoke after a few seconds in silence, trying to think of something to say before jongin threw him out of his room.

in truth, jongin wasn't as mad as he was before and in a way he could understand the whole situation. but because it was something that ate jongin alive for months on end, he felt like he deserved a proper explanation, to feel some closure about why would sehun and baekhyun vanish, telling basically everyone but him.

maybe not everyone, but-

"i know why you're mad and i'm sorry. i wanted to tell you but there was never a right time... i didn't know how you would react if i told you i was gay." sehun cleared his throat, fiddling with his fingers.

jongin stayed silent, wanting sehun to finish whatever speech he wanted to give.

"me and baekhyun started spending a lot of time together and one day i might have let it slip that i liked him and fortunately he liked me back," sehun gave a almost unnoticeable smile, "we started dating with the intention to tell everyone once the time was right but someone photographed us kissing while we were on holidays and it just got blown out of scale."

"i told junmyeon because he was helping us get approval from lee soo man and the reason why we took a hiatus without telling anyone is because we didn't want to hurt the group's image... the faster we were out of the picture, the faster you guys could go back to promoting without everyone speaking about 'that gay couple in exo'. i am really sorry, jongin, i am. we threw our phones away so we wouldn't look at the nasty comments so we didn't contact you guys for all that time and i know it is no excuse for not reaching out even once but, it was something we needed, to just get away."

jongin intently listened to sehun, trying to keep a serious face on but in the end he just sighed.

"i'm not mad," he started, "i understand, i understand it even more coming from you. i guess i was holding on to petty anger since we were best friends and i wasn't even aware you were into men."

a look of relief washed over sehun's face as he finally gave jongin a big toothy smile.

"i... i missed you, i missed you both." jongin shyly got up and went over to sehun, embracing him in a very awkward hug because of their position, but a very sincere one nonetheless.

"i missed you too." sehun rubbed jongin's back before he felt a sudden sting on his own back, "ow! what was that for?"

jongin smiled at sehun, "i will literally break your penis if you ever do that again."

when they finally went back to living room, jongin gave the worried baekhyun a big hug and apologized for being so dramatic.

"you owe me a nice lunch." and jongin couldn't agree more.

。。。

"so, what." baekhyun told jongin after the younger explained the situation in taemin's apartment earlier, "you're questioning your sexuality, is that it?"

jongin choked on his milkshake before glaring over to the boy who was already chugging back the remains of his own milkshake.

"i really didn't bring you to burger king to expose me like that," jongin huffed, "and it's not that i like him, we're... friends?"

baekhyun looked at jongin as if he had three heads.

"and you don't think friends can have feelings for one another? and come on man, you're telling me you only realized you might feel something for taemin after the most cliché moment in the history of all cliché moments? pathetic, at least be a little more original."

jongin sighed as he wondered why he chose baekhyun to talk about his crisis than literally any other human being on the face of this earth.