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midnight

My heart was racing. My fingers trembling.

We were finally going back to Korea. You would assume I would be so happy finally being able to get back home and relax with my family and friends.

But I wasn't.

As the time ticked, I got more nervous. Me and the crew were sitting on the jet. Everyone was so bubbly but worn out at the same time. I bit my nails as i looked out into the evening sky out the jet.

'Chaeyoung? Everything okay?' Jisoo asked on the other side of the seat.

I nodded, staying silent.

'Come on what is it? It is about him?'

My heart skipped a bit. I didn't realize how much I became so attached to him until a while ago. We haven't talked at all and it was heartbreaking. He never posts on his tweeter so keeping up with him was impossible. I knew he was back home though as his tour finished almost two weeks.

I had asked him a couple of weeks ago to meet me but I had little doubt that even wanted to. It was so frustrating. I wanted him to come see me... even he wanted to end things off... even if it meant that I would never get to see him again...

... I wanted to see him.

'Chaeyoung!'

I jumped, startled. The whole jet had gone quiet and everyone was looking at me.

'What's up with you? Why are you all nervous like that?' Lisa asked.

'Oh, um... it's nothing!' I laughed nervously.

'You've been acting weird again today Chaeyoungie' said Jennie. The girl nodded in agreement.

'I have?'

'YES!' They screamed.

I looked at all of them... and the started to laughed. I don't know why though but I couldn't stop.

'Chaengie you're weird' Jennie shook her head as she went back on her phone, but giggled at my reaction.

'I love you too' I chirped back.

'I think we're going to be landing soon' Lisa squealed. 

'Oh my God! I'm hate to say it but I'm so glad to be home!' Jisoo smiled.

'Same... but at the same time going on world tour was the best memorable experience in my whole entire life' said Lisa.

We all nodded. 'I pray we get to do something like this again' I sighed.

Going on this tour has brought me so much happiness and memories again. Meeting all of international blinks was the most amazing thing. The support was incredible. I was really happy for once.

I let out a deep breath. I thought of having a whole world of blink supporting and loving me felt unbelievable and I was forever grateful for them.

And... him.

I had relaxed a bit as I had become more to terms with the situation. It wasn't going to be the end of the world really... if we weren't meant to be.

If all came to the worst, I wasn't going to let that stop me. I told myself that it was going to be okay.

-

"YAH DRINK UP " Mingyu cried.

I was out with my guy friends in a small outdoor bar. Me, Eunwoo, Yugyeom and Mingyu we're having a few drinks together. I hadn't seem them in such a long time so it was really nice to get to meet them again. Even more nice to be at home.