Schizophrenia Love

Kai

Every since my first day of school i cant stop thinking about vanity. She was so perfect every little thing of heaven. But is something about her that reminds her of me. You see i have a bad case of schizophrenia every since i hit that blunt in 9 th grade my life changed so much. I  use to be a gang member into i got shot 5 times.  Cant  even have a relationship without having all these voices in my head. This medication I am  really do no type of justice.  Im in 12 th grade, and yes  I plan o going to college. 

Do you really think you going to college?  You are  going to be just like your dad. In somebody jail or even dead, said the voices in my head.

I went to the kitchen pour me a big glass of water.  Took my pills, when suddenly my phone made a noise, figured it was a text alert because it made a ding sound. Then I realized it was fine ass Vanity. That girl know she really look good.

future bm- Hey !

future  bae- Sup shorty! Miss a nigga already. Dang ,we haven't even kissed yet baby.

future bm- I guess lol Don't flatter yourself.  Anyways. What are you doing?

future bae- Shit thinking about you. No lies!

future bm- Yeah  right. Stop lying. All the girls in the world and you thinking about little ol me'

future bae- What you mean?  You know I like you df !  The question is do u feel the same about a nigga. Are you feeling  me like I am feeling you shorty.

 bm- I mean I don't even know you. You something like a  stranger. 

 bae-  You  know if you like a nigga or not stop playing with me.  You probably over there smiling or what not. Don't end up dreaming about me tonight.

 bm-  Boy you not the finest nigga of them all.

 bae- Im your fine nigga  though. Besides,  my cousin already told me you had a thing for the kid.  Shorty its all good. We can make this reality. When you stop playing with me.

bm- Watever boy. Im going to sleep it getting really late. Ill see you at school.

f bae- See you tommrow boo. Ohh and forshow im walking you too class shorty hand and hand.

 bm- boy bye! 

I don't know why she  playing hard to get with a nigga. I know for facts that she is really feeling me.  Im feeling her in a million ways.  When I first seen her she caught my eyes. She was tall but not so tall. Thick in all the  right places.  Light brown skin,  with a touch of chocolate. Slanted almond eyes,  with deep dimpos. She played the innocent role.  I know shorty feeling my style, I can tell she been hurt before.  She never looks me in my eyes. She scared.  I can see it in her eyes. Whice we all been before.  Just cause I a nigga don't mean I haven't been hurt. Hell I done been hurt by my own family. I know what it feels like for the person you love to deceive  you.  You live in a world where you put your guard up. You do on fact  want to be loved but who can you trust.