Schizophrenia Love

Game Plan

I really woke up in a fantastic mood. I really didnt care about hearing voices. I just took my medicines and kept going. I guess I really do like Kai. I can not front I'm kind of scared to get involve with someone. He so fine and so perfect. So I was sitting there just looking at what I wanted to wear. I wanted to be super cute but not scream rachett. So, I wore a tight olive green bodysuit with olive green 13s. I let my wavy hair down and did my makeup. I didn't want anything to eat because I didn't want to run into my mother. She works morning shift. How can you be a nurse saving lives and be so evil I thought to myself but that was her? I got a little insecure about the outfit I had on. I hope I didn't look to fat.

Why would you put that on looking like a two dollar hoe. He is going to think you are easy. you are showing everything, said the voices in my head.

These voices are starting to be to much. Even medicine is not working. Sometimes I wish I never had to go through this. I sometimes feel im not even normal. I was so happy to see my friend beauty.

"Hey girlie!"

Hey beauty! Whats going on?

" girl I got some tea".

spill the tea then girl.

"So I talked to kai he keep talking about you. He gonna be all over you today. You know you like him. I see you blushing !"You looking real fly too!

I mean he okay but I just don't know I just move here.

I had to look at vanity I really wanted her to know how serious I was. I am not just going to tell her anything. I really feel like she can be a good friend.

"Gurrl its really okay to live a little bit. He is not a bad guy. He been hurt to just have fun boo

I guess you right!

"Yeah boo I got your back . I mean I know it can be hard to trust people especially niggas. Honestly he is a great person. And besides who eles would I want dating my cousin besides you. and if he fuck up he know ill whoop his ass over my girl."

laughing)

You are something eles. Thank you for being so nice to me. Im not use to this at all. I appreciate you.

"You my girl! look girl, your boo eyeing you. He checking you out. I'm going to catch you later. I'll meet were we met at last week."

fasho fasho!

I always been shy my whole life especially when it came to fine ass boys. He look so handsome today. I always wonder what did he really see in me. Its a lot of girls that pretty that go to our school. Like why me? I guess only time will tell. What he really want from me. As he walked towards me I started to sweat really hard im telling you like a run away slave.

"Hey vanity! Did daddy tell you to be dressing all sexy and showing off my body like that!"Damn boo you looking good ass fuck shorty. You trying to get these niggas beat up?

Ohh you funny, funny! Never knew you was my daddy and last time I checked this was my body player.

"Oh why you gotta be sassy! Sometimes you gotta speak things into happening shorty!" Its going to happen shorty.

If you say so!

"So beautiful let me carry your books to class what I tell you last time. Pretty girls don't carry books that's for ugly hood rats. You got that future baby mama.

You need to stop!

I hate when I overthink things. Class was going good into the girl in front was throwing salt on my name. We had to go in front since this was our first week of school back.

"Listen Class I want everyone to get to know everyone. So I will go first. My name is Ms. Nelson. I been teaching for 8 years. I used to teach middle school, but I felt the kids was a tad bit to much, being that im older so I decided to teach high school. I love teaching high school. I love all my students. I want yall to look at me as your role model anything you ever need, I am always here. I love writing. Why, because I feel you can be anyone you want to through a book. You don't have anyone in face to judge you. You can end the book how ever you like. So enough about me I will call one of you up. Just tell the classroom about yourself then after you are finished you will call the next person up that you want to get to know. Yes ladies and gentlemen this is for your first grade keep that in mind. So first up will be Ashley."

"Of course im always first at everything I do. Great choice."

Ashley lets continue now said, Ms. nelson .

"Okay so everyone knows I am Ashley but all my pretty friends call me Ash. It my last year. Im going to take homecomimg queen of course im the most baddest thing walking.

I don't know how kai dealt with her. She is so conceited I swear. I mean she is pretty. A lot prettier than me. I really don't see why kai is feeling me when looking at her. we are so diferent.

"So like yeah after highschool im going to become a famous stripper like Amber Rose, and get my body done. Just be a sex symbol, said Ashley."

Ashley you may be excused , now pick one of your classmates to go up.

Its not like I wanna get to know her she really look like trash and I see she trying to steal my x man so yeah the new girl.

She then points at me. I was so angry I wanted to run away. I looked at Kai and he pointed for me to go to the front of the classroom. I think he knew I wanted to run out the classroom and cry. I stood my ground. Walk up. All the boys were checking me out. Im usually shy but I was more mad than anything. I wasn't scared neither.

Hello Classmates. Im Vanity. Im never trash more like a diamond in a ruff. This is my lasy year after highschool I want to become a professional makeup artist. For not so good looking girls to feel pretty loved and inspired. Im a very outgoing person long as you don't disrespect me because if you do you playing with fire and you will get burn. That's on periodt.

"Alrighty then this introductions are very intense. This is a poetry class not some smack url battle. As you can see the bell just rung . So, Friday we will finished where we left. Please be nice and respectful to everyone. Ashley you got that!

"Sure Ms. Nelson!"

I tried to run as fast as I could. I just wanted to go home. I knew going to this school was a bad idea. This was so embrassing. When someone calls you trash. I just wanted to go and hid under a rock off this earth.