In Too Deep: A Walking Dead Clementine x Male Reader

Part 18: Resting and Waiting

I'm sitting at the dinner table eating my early breakfast. Everyone is still asleep and in their room. If any of them knew I was doing this they'd try and stop me.

After all these years of waiting, I finally know where he is. The bastard that killed my family is going to get what he deserved. Before I can leave though, a noise creeps down the stairs and stops me.

"Y/N? What are you doing?"

It's Patrick. He was nice to me when I came here, but after a while he turned into an asshole bossing me around every chance he got. I definitely can't let him know what I'm doing. "Nothing Patrick, I was just gonna head to the house for a little. Might stay the day there, I left a note."

I point over at the table, but Patrick keeps his eyes on me. "What are you really going to do Y/N?"

Fuck. How does he know I'm lying? Play it cool. "What do you mean? I just told you."

"No, don't fucking lie. You're going to kill that dude and his gang. You can't risk that Y/N.

Fuck, I gotta come clean I guess. "Look, those guys told me where to find him and his gang. Killing them can insure our safety and anyone else's."

He looks at me with a blank stare. "You really think you can do that? You came back here almost dead last time, and that was only two people. You're either gonna die during this, or get captured.

"I can handle mysel-"

"I don't want you coming back here after this. You're choosing revenge over my family."

I start to get angry. "They're my family too!"

"No! You choose your dead family over the one that took you in and you still have! If you come back here, I'll deal with you myself! Now get out of here!"

Patrick turns to walk back up the stairs. I look in disbelief. I guess this is it. I take one last look inside, and then walk out the door to do what should have been done a long time ago.
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My eyes open and I'm in my new bedroom. I put my hand under my shirt to feel the scars I got from the two men I interrogated. I was so cruel, so heartless, and all that had no payoff. Just more pain.

"Reminiscing old memories Y/N?"

I look over to see Patrick. I might actually need some help with these illusions. I roll over and look at the wall away from him. "Fuck off, you're not real."

"We'll either way, I'm not going anywhere. Let me guess, were you thinking about how you were a greedy piece of shit?"

I grind my teeth together. My goddamn brain is being a real pain in the ass. "It was the day I left to kill him."

Patrick grins after hearing this. "So I was right! My last day alive!"

Patrick then frowns and looks at me sadly. "You know Y/N, I just realized something. I know you wish you stayed home and died with us, but I'm glad you didn't."

I calm down for a moment, and then turn to look at him feeling sad. Tears are actually starting to flow from my eyes.

"Yeah, I'm glad your still alive. You never were part of our family, and I wouldn't want some piece of trash like you dying with my loved ones!"

My eyes dry up real quick and my anger rises in me. "Fuck you! Leave me alone!"

Suddenly, Aj wakes up from my yelling and looks completely upset. Patrick disappeared, so at least I don't need to worry about that. "Y/N...why are you yelling at me? I didn't mean to upset you or anything."

I frown and get out of bed and walk over. "No, Aj. I'm sorry. I've been having bad dreams....and thoughts lately. It's getting harder to control them."

Aj sits up on his bed and lets me sit with him. "Is there anything I can do to help?"

I smile at the boy, and shrug my shoulders. "I don't know what will fix it, so if you have an idea let me know."

The boy looks at me and thinks. "Have you told anyone about it yet?"

"No I haven't. Clem might know about it since she's heard me at night before, and I think she knew I was lying yesterday when I said I was fine."

Aj smiles at this. "She is pretty smart. Maybe you should tell her about it."

I nod my head, but decide I don't want to talk about it anymore. "Yeah maybe, but I think I owe you one for scaring you, and I have the perfect answer."

I limb over to my backpack, and pull out my harmonica and my CD player. "Would you like to hear some music?"

Aj smiles and nods his head. We spend the rest of the day listening to music until Clem comes to give us our food. "How were your days boys?"

"It was awesome Clem! Me and Y/N listened to music all day! We also talked about..."

Aj stops himself when he sees me looking at him. "Talked about...how much we want to be outside helping!"

Clem smiles at this. "Well if you guys feel ready then maybe we can get you out there. You okay with that Y/N?"

"Yeah that sounds good to me. I'll be ready to help tomorrow morning."

Clem gets into her bed and lays down to rest. Aj's right about me telling her what's been happening. I can't beat this on my own, and they all should know. "Clementine can I-"

I hear snores coming from her bed . "talk to...oh well. When the time is right I'll tell."

I get comfy in my bed, and think about when that might be.