Empty (Taekook)

Part 21

Jungkooks pov

Two weeks. 

It had been two weeks ago that Tae almost kissed me. 

I really want to feel his lips on mine. 

But I’m terrified. Of being told that I’m loved,only to fall for the lie and get broken down again. 

Jackson told me, that no matter what, he would never try to hurt me. I was his best friend and he was mine. My only friend. 

So, I had no choice but to believe him. 

Now look where I am.

The feelings I hold for Taehyung are strong. Very strong. He has hurt me,but he has helped me. 

He has saved me from my bullies countless times. He’s defending me. 

Yet, knowing that he sleeps around. Makes it difficult to trust him. 

“Yah Jungkook-ah!” I hear my hyung yell from the kitchen. “Come eat!” 

It was currently 6:30 at night. Tae has been making me eat breakfast and dinner. I tend to skip lunch because, well it makes me feel better about myself. Not eating. 

I feel like I’m helping myself. Though I know i'm not. The voice in the back of my head keeps telling me. 

The emptier I am, the better it is. 

“I’m c-coming hyung.” I yell sitting up from my lying position on my bed. 

Slowly I walk into the kitchen. 

Lately I haven’t been throwing up as much. Taehyung watches me like a hawk. Checking in every few minutes to make sure I’m okay. 

“I made pasta!” He says excited. He holds out a red pot with gloved hands proudly. “My friend Jin taught me!” 

“I met him pabo’” I laugh taking a seat. He serves me a small plate and gives me a fork before doing the same for himself taking a seat next to me. 

He always puts me first. 

The thought makes my lips tug up into a small smile as I slowly raise the fork to my parted lips. 

“He’s basically my mom.” He laughs. “Always making sure I’m okay.” He turns to me. He pinches my cheeks as I chew my food, causing them to turn red. 

“T-Thats sweet” I swallow my food and look at my plate. It’s only a quarter empty. I slowly turn towards tae, finding his plate almost completely empty. Causing me to gulp. 

The shredding fear of disappointing him pulls me on one side, while my crushing desire to be perfect pulls on the other. 

The two playing a dangerous game of tug of war as my breath quickens and my hands become sweaty. 

I abruptly drop my fork and stand. 

My hands run through my hair in distress as Taehyung stands in worry. 

“Jungkook?” He whispers. I feel him slowly stand behind me as he places his hand delicately on my shoulder. “What's a matter bun.” His voice is so gentle. 

“I-I’m sorry.” I say fighting the hot tears that build up in the corners of my eyes. My hands shake as my hands form fists. “ I’m s-such a disappointment.” 

Tears start to fall freely down my cheeks as I hiccup trying to catch my breath. 

“You are not a disappointment!” He says grabbing both my hands. He slowly unfolds them before intertwining out fingers, giving my hands a gentle squeeze. “You are amazing baby.” Tae says smiling lightly. 

“Y-you, Y-You’re ly-lying.” I accuse as my eyes continue to spill big salty tears down my face. “I-I’m so pa-pathetic!” He raise my voice lightly. My legs give way and I slowly drop to my knees on the hard wooden floor. 

Tae still holds my hands as he kneels in front of me.

“You want me to show you how much you amaze me?” He says hesitantly. 

I raise a brow questioningly, and slowly nod. 

He leans closer to me keeping our hands intertwined between our two bodies. 

His lips meet mine softly. So soft that I didn't feel them at first. 

He lets go of my hands to place his own on my hips,pulling me into his lap. 

My eyes widen as he kisses me passionately. So much feeling and emotion portrayed through such a simple action. 

I slowly move my inexperienced lips against his as I become comfortable in his embrace. 

Slowly we part. His eyes look into mine with such care and love that I forget about everyone else. 

And I feel happy. 

“I-I think...I love you?” He says slowly. “This- I-ugh- Im new to this.” He says with much difficulty. “My last relationship was nearly 3 years ago…”  He explains softly. “I-It didn’t end too well.” 

My eyes widen as I realize what is happening. 

“Y-you r-really mean it?” I sniff moving my head back as I place my hands on his shoulders. 

“Y-yes I do.” He whispers looking down. “Ash I-I can’t stop thinking about you!” He laughs. “Will you...be my boyfriend.”

My eyes widen my hands falling off his shoulders to cover my mouth. 

“ I- um… Maybe” I whisper slowly. “ I- are you s-sure you want me?” I say looking down at myself in doubt. 

“Yes” He says confidently. 

“ N-Not for… you know” A small blush creeps onto my face causing taehyung to smile. 

“I love you Jungkook.” He explains softly. “I won’t do anything you don’t want.” He slides his thumb across my cheek drying the tears that had fallen earlier. 

“Promise” I whisper solemnly. 

“Promise” He replies with a smile. 

“T-then I-I yes. I’ll b-be yo-your boy-boyfriend.” I say softly. My hands go up to cover my face in embarrassment as he smiles widely at me. 

“Thank you! I will make you so happy I promise” His teeth show as he shows off his rare, but beautiful box smile as he hugs jungkook close to his chest. 

“a-ah okay” I smile slightly, still unsure as the voice in the back of my head tells me it isn’t going to work out. “I’ll try to d-do the s-same for you.”

“You already are” Taehyung leans forwards leaving a warm kiss on my forehead. 

I lean forward more leaning into his touch, soon resting my head in the crook of his neck embarrassed. 

“You are so cute” Taehyung laughs giving me another kiss on top of my head. 

“S-stop it!” I giggle softly hitting his chest. 

“It’s true!” He says lifting my head.

He pecks my lips quickly causing me to blush more and cover my cheeks with my palms. 

He makes my heart race, and it scares me.

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A.N

So it's been soooo long since I've updated... I always read the new comments that come in and I want to welcome any new readers and than my supporters who have been here from the beginning. I'm trying to improve my writing so please comment if you see any mistakes. Now I have some pre-written chapters, but I haven't finished the book. So please don't hesitate to comment any ideas or suggestions on where I should take this. I love y'all and I hope you are all safe and happy along with your families❤️

~Aly