Friday: April 3rd, 2020 (1:10a.m.)
Tonight is one of the hard nights. I keep telling myself it'll get better but as time goes on, it gets harder and harder. My dreams keep getting more realistic and the worst part is that everytime I fall asleep Kameron keeps popping up. "I miss you" he says. "I love you" he tells me. His soft brown eyes looks at me like they once did. "I'm so sorry for everything." he cries. He holds me close and makes sure I'm okay. everything is so peaceful and calm. Then the worse happens, I wake up. I started to keep myself awake at night because I hate my dreams. They give me hope when i know that there is no hope left. Kameron has hurt me in more ways than he would ever know. The worst thing is that he didn't even mean to intentionally hurt me but he did. I felt so used and broken yet i still loved him with everything in me. If only I could've made it right, I keep telling myself. maybe we wouldn't be here in this situation. I love Kameron. He was my best friend. Then, he left like a ghost. I want to talk to him but i know this is the best for both if us.So, i guess I'll just keep dancing with the ghost he left behind. Maybe it will get better. Maybe I'll be able to let go of what I have left of him.
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FORGETTING HIM
JugendliteraturIf I wouldn't have listened to my heart, it wouldn't have ended like this. However, it's too late now. Or is it? You're not alone, so come join me on the path of forgetting that boy who hurt you more than anyone will ever know.
