Delivery Notes

CHAPTER 6 - "STARVING"

"I've ordered you a porn star martini" Sally teases me as we arrived at the bar. "I suppose I should get one for you too?" she said to Toby raising an eyebrow.

I genuinely cackled in response to her gentle mocking of us, I wanted to kill her for that. I covered my embarrassed smile with my free hand to hide my bashfulness as I gave her a playful glare. I felt Toby give my hand a gentle squeeze.

I finally looked up to meet his gaze and his face was flushed with an embarrassed smile too. I was expecting him to look cocky or hubristic. But he seemed genuinely shy, just like I was. I heard myself sigh as I felt my heart swell in my chest. He was so endearing.

I picked up the shot of prosecco from the bar and slammed it. Toby and Sally both laughed at me and a giggle escaped my lips.

"Do you want another drink?" I offered Toby. My voice sounded kind of funny, a bit to high pitched. I need to get a grip.

"Yeah, I'll get it though don't worry." he smiled. I struggled to look away from his face. I was so deep in my crush right now that I couldn't think straight.

"Tillie, we still haven't been the loo. Do you wanna come with me now?" Sally asked. Now that I think about it, I did really need to go. But I didn't want to go in case he disappears while I'm gone. I looked up at Toby.

"I'll be back in a bit ok?" I pleaded.

"Ok, I'll meet you back at the table, or on the dancefloor if you want another err... Dance" he teased with a smirk. I giggled as I glanced away from his taunting eyes.

"Ok" I said as Sally pulled me away.

We scurried to the ladies and as soon as the door closed, Sally spun around and let out a high-pitched excited squeal.

"OMG Tillie, that was HOT! How are you feeling? Are you ok?"

I couldn't help getting swept up in her girly excitement.

"I know right? That was pretty epic. I'm all over the place." I can't help but notice the other girls smirking at us behind us using the mirror.

"What are you gonna do? I can stay out tonight if you want to take him home? Beci text me before, I'm sure she would mind if I crashed. she suggested.

"No, no, no! I can't do that. I don't know him! I can't do that!" I exclaimed.

"Says who? Of course you can do that! You're young free and single and a very hot-tattooed-bad-boy just almost took you right there on the dancefloor. You'd be mad not to take him home!" She pleaded. "Honestly Tillie, live a little will you!"

"As you said, he's only visiting. There's no future here. As sexy as he is, I'm not a one-night kinda girl. I like him too much, I don't want to get hurt." I confess, my tone defeated.

"You're overthinking it little spoon, you know it will go nowhere, you're not trying to find your next husband here, why not just enjoy the 'hot-tattooed-bad-boy' for the night and set him free in the morning. Judging from the preview you both gave us on dancefloor, you're in for the night of your life babe."

I sigh as my mind runs away with me. I turn to face the mirror as Sally goes into the cubicle. I look deep in my own eyes searching for answers.

Can I do this? Would I be using him? Would he be using me?

Or is this just two people clearly attracted to each other just living a little?

If I was honest with myself, since the moment our hands touched earlier at the bar, I havent been able to picture leaving here tonight without him. It seems Inevitable again. And it could be epic.