Lights || NA JAEMIN

Don't

There is one pain, I often feel, which you will never know. It’s caused by the absence of you.

Jinah

I looked at the number of the houses. I've been searching for his house after the school's done. In my grip is a paperbag with a box inside. There's eight macaroons inside the box. Each in different shade of pink.

I really hope he likes it.

After I found the exact house, I went to press the bell. I stood infront of the gate. Then there's a pretty lady who came out.

"Yes can I help you?" She asked sweetly.

"Hi, I'm Jaemin's new classmate. My name is Lee Jin Ah. I'm here to visit him. I bring macaroons for him too" I showed the paper bag.

The pretty lady smiled sweetly as she opened the gate to let me in.

"Hi Jinah... I'm Jaemin's sister and his personal doctor. My name is Na Haeun you can call me eonnie" she said.

"En... Eonnie" I smiled to her.

She took the paperbag from my hand as she's going to place them in a bowl. She told me where is Jaemin's bedroom and told me to go there first.

I walk up the stairs and went to the room. The door isn't closed so I looked from the outside.

He's there sitting on the bed, leaning his back against a pillow. I knocked on the door softly. He turned to look at my direction.

He smiled to me. The smile looks so weak. I walked in and went to sit beside his bed.

"Don't smile as if it's fine...." I pouted.

"I am fine" he said.

"Even though I don't know what you're going through and we just met today, still I can see that you're unwell"

"If you can't keep me company in class then I'll wait everyday for class to end so I can keep you company here and you can't stop me from doing that"

"I know we just met but don't try to push me away. I don't care what your condition is. I just want to help with what I can. Your sister must be tired taking care of you alone. I just want to at least ease her mind a little" I said while looking into his eyes.

At first he seemed suprised but then his expression softens. He reached out to my head and ruffled my hair. He finally are able to smile genuinely. It makes my heart feels at ease just by looking at his calm smile.

"Let me bother you to keep me company then? Thanks Jinah... You're too nice" he said.

"It's nothing... Besides you're the first person I met after moving into Seoul. I should cherish my first friend here" I said as the soft wind blow.

Haeun

I leaned at the wall beside the door to hide myself from the two. I really don't want to hurt the girl but she'll know how hard Jaemin's life is.

But I can't seem to keep her away from Jaemin. I'm not willing to keep people away from him anymore...

I just want my brother to be happy...

I took a deep breath and I realised I was crying while eavesdropping on their conversation. I can she's a nice girl. I tried to make myself look as normal as possible before going into the room.

I bring the tray with a bowl and three box of apple juice. I smiled as wide as I could.

"It's great that Jaemin has such a nice friend like you to keep him company" I said to her.

"I'll help eonnie from now on so don't worry" she said.

"Thanks Jinah" I took a deep breath and gave them a smile.

"I need to talk to my sister for awhile... You can wait at the guest room" Jaemin pointed at the room.

"Okay"

Jaemin

"Mark is back..." She said.

"I know... Jinah is his sister" I too a glance at her.

"Oh I see..."

"Jaemin you really should follow mom and dad's idea. In LA there's better opportunities for you. You might even heal yourself rather than staying here waiting until... Until..."

I rolled my eyes. Here we go again.

"I KNOW I'LL DIE ANYTIME IF THERE'S A FAILURE! YOU DON'T NEED TO RUB IT MORE IN MY FACE! I KNOW I'M SICK!" I took the pillow behind me and throw it and glared at her.

No I'm not trying to be rude to her. I grew up with her, I can't be mad at her. It's just... The idea of going to my parents is a bit... They don't even raise us up. They gave us money and that's it. If I go there... They're probably going to leave me at the hospital to die. I rather stay with her here than go there.

"I'll leave you to rest..." She went out of the room.

Suddenly I saw a small head peaking into the room. It makes me giggle.

"What are you doing there Jinah?"  I asked her.

She came in and took the pillow I threw. She bring it and helped me put it back behind me.

"You need to rest well Jaemin ah" She pat my head. I smiled at her attitude.

"I'm leaving now! Bye bye Jaeminie" she took her bag and head to the door.

"Jinah"

She turned back.

"Tell your brother to come visit his old dongsaeng" I said to her.

She nodded before waving and leaving the room.