Juggernaut
/ˈjəɡərˌnôt/
noun
1. It's the eyes you see outside your window when you haven't slept for days, eyes darker than the night surrounding them. Mother Nature is bitter and cruel, she taunts with stagnant heat and boils mankind alive, then blows ice storms across the ocean to trap you in the unforgiving frost. Can you dream without running away from something in the end? What will happen when you run into the iron wall, into the juggernaut of your own creation?
2. So damn unreachable, the sun is. No rocket can take me there, no wings can fly me. No eyes can let me stare, no skin can let me bathe. Nothing can deliver the sun to me, it's just so damn unreachable.
3. Bury me under the earth before I die-suffocate me in dirt and rocks and deliver my body to the worms, listen to me decay and decompose. I won't live past 32, I promised my childhood friend I'd marry him at 33.
4. The love I feel for you is angry, the love I feel is overwhelmingly angry. I want to crush skin with my fists, I want to tear down entire cities. Collapse before me, my love, but do not fear the explosions that ricochet within my heart. They fuel my inexorable rage, and my rebellion will continue until God sends another flood.
5. I wish I could kiss whatever girl I choose without the promise of hellfire and endless suffering looming over me. I wish, oh I wish so desperately, that I could express myself authentically without the cross whispering disappointment, failure, disgusting- without wearing my sins on my sleeve.
6. I'll never let myself become numb.
