3 Lives 3 worlds: Bai Zhen and Zhe Yan

Chapter 6: The Consummation Part 1

Bai Zhen didn't understand why however, today he felt incredibly saddened by Zhe Yan's rejection. After he left to fetch the wine tears started falling from his eyes.

He had never consciously cried before, tears to him were a sign of a hopeless situation for which he had no control over and no other alternatives existed to solve the situation thus, the sudden tears took him by surprise.

He thought back to his childhood, the very first moment he laid eyes on Zhe Yan he had felt something in him click into place and he only wanted to be close to Zhe Yan. When Zhe Yan said he was ugly he was hurt, thus when he became beautiful just a year later he wanted to show off, at first Zhe Yan entertained him and never avoided him.
As a child he didn't know how to hide things thus he asked what he wanted the most from Zhe Yan, a kiss for which he was denied but this didn't discourage him. He kept telling himself that they will be together some day.

He came back another day and asked for a kiss, he was denied again but this time was given a condition instead, something to strive for to be able to get what he wants. At that age he had understood a few things, although he was naturally lazy but for the things he wanted he was willing to put in the effort thus he had read some books since he wanted to know more about Zhe Yan and the phoenix clan.
He had collected and read quite a few books and had discovered books which he was sure he was not allowed to read. On that day he had also extracted a promise, contrary to what his family believed, Bai Zhen did work hard to meet the conditions it's just that his hard work amounted to normal effort in other people's eyes.

The books he read helped him and guided him on the path of achieving his goals but alas things were still not in his favour. Nothing changed as the thousands of years went by and he started losing hope.
On Qian Qian's coming out party, it was the 49999th day, exactly a day before the promise would expire. To everyone else the promise probably didn't exist anymore, long forgotten even to Zhe Yan himself, but he had constantly strived hard to achieve his goal.
Many had thought that he had gotten over his infatuation with Zhe Yan, only he knew how he felt. He hid his feelings, as he grew up he fell deeper in love with Zhe Yan the more he got to know him but was forced to hide his feelings, to him they were made for each other.

He too could also not explain this driving force that made him feel the way he did, it just always felt right, like being close to him is as it ought to be. On the day of the party he felt really depressed, he had put on the face needed for the occasion for his beloved sister's sake, however he is not a person who could easily hide his feelings so he had drank a lot in the end.

When he felt he could not continue without anyone noticing he decided to go to his favourite place, the place that brings him the greatest joy and equally the greatest heartache. He left for the Peach Blossom woods, being there had depressed him even more. The reason why he had spent so much time in the woods was because although Zhe Yan wasn't there at least he felt closer to him than if he were at his own cave.

On the day they got married joy was not enough to express his feelings.
He had spent the following years after the marriage building dependency to one another. Now people knew that they were inseparable, no words needed to be said to understand the relationship they shared, one could not be without the other.

He had thought that at least now Zhe Yan loved him too even if he wasn't aware of it, but tonight when they left Kunlun mountain Zhe Yan had looked at him with a different light in his eyes. As if he had finally realised and accepted that he also had fallen in love with him. Thus, Bai Zhen had felt unrestrained and decided to confess seriously.

He thought, even if he didn't get the same response back at the very least he would not be rejected. Is it really that he would never be able to move Zhe Yan? Then why did he marry him as if doing so was okay, as if they could build a future together?

Bai Zhen upon arriving to the cellar where Zhe Yan stored his wine he directly opened the special cabinet with one of the strongest liquors that could knock even a God down with just a jar. He decided to take two jars.

Standing in the cellar he composed himself, wiped his tears and using his power restored his usual look as if nothing happened. He didn't want Zhe Yan to feel any pressure, he wanted Zhe Yan's heart willingly without any sort of undercurrent coercion, that's why to this day he had never shown Zhe Yan when he was hurt by him in this regard.

He then proceeded to make his way back to the table, upon arriving he smiled at Zhe Yan and put down the liquor. Zhe Yan lifted a brow seeing the type of liquor he brought back, Bai Zhen just shrugged and started pouring the wine.

"Bai Zhen about what you said earlier..."

"Don't think about that, that's just how I feel, besides you know I haven't made it a secret. I was just affected by the fragrant peach blossoms, combined with the moon it makes a great night to write romantic poetry and make confessions.
By the way I have latest updates on the second prince of the mermaid clan..."

When Zhe Yan was interrupted by Bai Zhen he didn't have the courage to continue. He didn't want to hurt Bai Zhen so he wanted to apologise for his reaction earlier, as if sensing his apology Bai Zhen interrupted him.

They started playing chess and caught up on the latest gossip in the heavenly realm. They were both not drinking heavily but this liquor was strong thus it slowly went to their heads.

Laughing and chatting, it was a harmonious atmosphere. Zhe Yan felt a little restless after this first round of the game, they had done this many times under the same atmosphere but tonight it felt different. He was suddenly more aware of Bai Zhen, he silently took small glances of Bai Zhen and he felt that Bai Zhen looked really beautiful tonight.

Bai Zhen is extremely beautiful and the more he looked the more he couldn't look away. At first it used to amaze him that Bai Zhen did not get upset when people used words like 'pretty, stunning, beautiful' amongst many others to describe him. Zhe Yan once asked why it didn't bother him and his response was so Bai Zhen, 'Being called beautiful is a compliment and not an insult, besides it's not like it takes anything away from my gender and I'm too lazy to be bothered by such matters', thinking about it now Zhe Yan couldn't help but smile at such a response.

When the first round of chess ended he didn't offer to line a new one and Bai Zhen didn't either. He was not exactly so masochistic that he would run to get defeated by Zhe Yan every time. He paused through telling his story because he had noticed that Zhe Yan was staring at him.
"Zhe Yan what did you and Mo Yuan talk about today? You seem really distracted", if it was earlier before the wine or any other day Zhe Yan probably wouldn't answer him.

"We talked about you and me...and my feelings for you?" Bai Zhen was not expecting an actual honest answer, so it really took him by surprise hearing Zhe Yan respond to his question with such honesty.

He immediately stopped whatever words he wanted to say and really looked at Zhe Yan. "I told him about our marriage, and he made me realise how I feel about you."
Bai Zhen held his breath, he really seemed like he could not follow this conversation.
"What do you mean by that?" Bai Zen asked. Zhe Yan suddenly leaned forward, looked directly into Bai Zhen's eyes.

"Zhen Zhen let's consummate our marriage tonight, sleep with me?"

For a moment Bai Zhen could not believe his ears. Zhe Yan walked around the table, looked Bai Zhen in the eyes, "sleep with me."

This time it wasn't a question.