dying happily

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I opened doors without a knock from the other side
I painted my soul with everything that's bright
Like the morning sky turned to perfect scarlet
But no one was there to see the night

I took empty seats and half-filled promises
I found myself in crumpled thin sheets
Like the ink spilled did not really matter
And if it did, it mattered for the wrong reason

In my dreams, I ripped my own shadows
peeled my skin with my fingertips
I never wanted to be me;
And it hurts not wanting myself.

I closed my eyes like I'm ending my life
Gasping for air but not wanting for more
Pushing my head down the sink
And I thought of you.

I was happy I met you.

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