Dickinson

Because I Could Not Stop

AUTHORS NOTE: I AM GOING TO BE TRYING MY BEST TO FIX UP EVERY CHAPTER, when i first publish each chapter please note that it will be the rough version until i can fully edit the final. I want to play as soon as i can, Please enjoy and i will be editing this later.

Emily Dickinson was born in 1830
in Amherst, Massachusetts.

She lived throughout her life
in her father's house.

Near the end of her life,
she rarely left her own room.

Aside from a few mostly anonymous verses,
she remained unpublished.

When she died, her poems were discovered.

Some of the strangest,
most fascinating poems ever written.
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In 19th-century Massachusetts, a young Emily Dickinson's attempt to publish a poem sparks backlash.

It's currently 4am and I Emily Elizabeth Dickinson am up writing. Poetry is where my heart lies. All I want is to get the notice that I've convinced myself I deserve. 

Mother wants nothing more than to marry me off to the first suitor she deems best for me, I am not interested in getting married.

As my candle burns I hear a knock on my door, once again just to remind you - it's 4 in the morning. I sigh in disbelief as I open the door. Standing there with a bucket is my younger sister, Lavinia.

"Mother says you have to collect water." she says before I could even respond she hands me the empty bucket.

I quickly snap out of my trance, whispering in an annoyed tone  "Lavinia it's 4 in the morning, I am writing"

"Mother said YOU have to I did it yesterday." she said waiting for me to take the bucket.

"Why can't Austin do it?" I await for a response, only to be disappointed by the answer.

"Austin is a boy" she says simply.

"This is such bullshit." I say as before hastily grabbing the empty bucket.

That's one thing Lavinia and I can agree on. Boys have it a lot easier than us women.

Walking back towards the house I carelessly carry the bucket. As I see the sunlight peaking from behind the house. Entering the kitchen I'm met by my sister and my Mother. Of course mother is straight to complaining about the amount of water I've collected. Maybe if I told her how much I didn't want to get married she would stop complaining.

"Mother I do not want to get married." As that sentence left my mouth I knew I wouldn't be prepared to endure what my mother has to say so before I got my head blown off I left the kitchen, hearing mothers argument even after leaving.

Walking over to the stables I hear a horse trotting towards me, looking up to no surprise it's just my older brother.

"What are you doing my dearest sister?" He says looking down on me (as men do) I sigh and stare up at him "I am collecting eggs for mother, she has tried to marry me off again - this time to our friend George." His laughter echoed around me.

"Well speaking of marriage I have just proposed to Sue, she said Yes" he said without hesitation. I gasped in disbelief and yelled "Austin you can't marry sue!"

His smug face was honestly just pissing me off.
"Why not?" before he could even finish his sentence I yell once again "Because she's my best friend!"

Before I could say anymore he tells me that Sue's eldest sister Mary has passed away. Great so now he has been taking advantage of my lovely Sue, while in mourning he decides to pounce? This is beyond a dream, this is a nightmare. Why Austin? Why must she marry Austin? I think to myself.

I'm disappointed and hurt - but I needed to hear it from Sue. As I am an aspiring writer I took this opportunity to write. I wrote Sue a letter telling her to meet me in the orchard, my favourite place to get away from everything and where my favourite tree sits. Sliding the letter into an envelope I quickly realised Austin being the nosey man he is would try to read it before Sue could even look at it. This time Austin, you're out smarted. I wrote on the front "Austin, Do not read this letter. Give it to sue." I placed the letter in a basket and hung it out by the lounge room window which I know for a fact is where everyone will be discussing Austin and Sue's future plans.  I hoped she would see my note.

Once I placed the note where be, I decided to go straight to the orchard. Sitting up in my favourite tree the only thought on my mind was that being my brother is marrying my favourite person in the world. My mind continues to wander until I finally see her approaching. I yell down from the trees with pain straining in my voice "Is this some kind of joke? You're marrying my brother, are you insane?"

Before I could finish the rest of my sentence I'm being cut off by Sue "What else was I supposed to Emily, my ENTIRE family is dead." she said looking up at me fighting the urge to cry.

"Yes I know and I feel terrible about that, but Austin? You don't even like him, you told me you don't respect his intellect. Besides I thought we were never getting married. I thought we were gonna grow up and become great writers together." I say climbing down from the tree and walking to where I could face Sue.

"That's a stupid promise we made when we were 14 years old and even then I knew it was a lie, I'm not like you Emily, I didn't grow up with money. I don't have your perfect life" she says before softly biting her lip and looking down

I look at her in disappointment as I feel words slip from my lips "You think my life is perfect? Do you even know me?" I say before realising how selfish I sound in comparison to Sue's life.

"I'm all alone in this world, I'm destitute. If I don't marry Austin I will literally starve to death." She whispers sadly but so very seriously.

Knowing how much she loved and adored her sister I can't help but feel guilty for complaining about my family issues. "I'm sorry about Marry, I really liked her." I say trying my very best to comfort her with a reassuring smile.

"Yeah I liked her too, she was my favourite sister." She says before quickly wiping away her tears, I know she is doing everything to avoid making eye contact with me right now. I think everything is all too much right now.

"Well I guess since you'll be marrying Austin, I'll be your sister now" I say trying my very hardest to show no signs of being upset. A slight smile appears on Sues face.

"Promise me something sue?" I say quietly, as she looks up at me the words that left my lips caused me to anxiously look away. "Okay promise me two things, one that you won't move away to Michigan and two; that you'll always love me more than him."

I see Sue look away as I say the first promise. "As far as the first one goes, it's really Austin's decision." she says with a sigh.

"But as far as the second" she says moving closer towards me "Yeah?" I whisper. "I wouldn't worry too much about that one" she says as a smirk appears on her face.

In the heat of the moment I was lost, being fully consumed by Sue. When our eyes locked to one another's I couldn't help myself but pull her close and kissing her oh so passionately.

I did not want her to marry my brother. I tried all I could to forget about that for in this moment all I wanted was Sue.

As that innocent little kiss turned into us making out for longer than I can remember, all I remember is the moment it started to rain.

As the rain bucketed down, oh how it bucketed. The only thing I could focus on was the tenderness of Sue's touch as well as the feeling of her lips against mine. I didn't want this moment to end.

End of Chapter 1

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Authors note: Sorry this isn't exactly the best but I am hoping to get better as I continue re-writing the episodes as a book. I am currently writing Chapter 2 now.