Virulence|yoongi!centric!fluff!angst!trigger warning!~e n j o y~

~d o u z e~

"And they lay like this the rest of the morning."

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Yoongi pov

I woke up and reached over Jimin to check the time. It's 11:26. I get out of bed to go and fix myself before the voice has to tell me to. 

I take a shower and do my daily 30 in there despite the fact I got caught doing it yesterday.

Hey pansexual freak.

What?

I dare you to keep cutting this thin lines. You know you deserve deeper.

So before, I deserve a reward and now I get a punishment? For what?

For being pansexual. You freak. You're such an attention seeking whore.

I cut deeper without knowing it and mumble the words "Stop it, don't say that it isn't true I swear I'm not." under my breath as I can feel my airways getting tighter. I grip my hair, practically pulling it out as tears sting my eyes and fall on to the floor.

I finally manage to catch my breath and and calm myself down. I treat my cuts and change into a black, oversized hoodie and stonewashed jeans after drying my hair.

Jimin and the other members call my name. "I'm coming!" I yell from the bathroom floor.

But my vision basically says "fuck it" and starts spinning. I grab my head as I make my way to the door. "Woah, hyung easy there," Jimin says as I practically fall onto him. "What happened? I was pretty sure that your hangover wouldn't be as bad by now." 

Haha. Ever heard of blood loss, Jimin?

I give him a grunt in response as I start to walk out. Is it just me or is the room spinning in every direction possible?

It's just you. Just put one foot in front of the other, deep breath in and--.

Crap I grab onto the wall and then Jimin. I curse under my breath as I let myself fall onto the couch. Jungkook brings me a glass of water. "Hyung, you okay?

No, I'm scared and my life is screwed up. I feel lifeless. I hate myself and you probably hate me and I wouldn't be surprised if you did. I'm better off dead and---.

"Yep, I'm fine, never better Kook-ah."

Jungkook and everyone else looks suspicious and so does everyone else. Especially Jin. "Yoongi-ah, are you sure?" I glare at him. "I said I'm fine can you stop interrogating me." Jin only sighs at that and stops talking, as he should.

I scroll through Twitter for my daily fun fact:

banqtan_kidzCan't believe that yoonGAY is still in bts the boys deserve better 7-1= STRONGER! Fighting!

There it is. I sigh and scroll through more hate comments and death threats, my heart breaking with each one I see. "Yoongi-chi," Jin says coming over. "What's making you frown so much?" I shake my head and turn my phone off trying to avoid seeing the comments as I keep my tears at bay.

While Jin holds me Jimin says, "Random question, but who's turn is it to go to the store this week?" Wait it's mine.

"I'll go." I say as I untangle myself from my hyung's embrace. "Yoongi-ah, you should rest. You aren't going anywhere." I scoff. "Too bad you can't make me stay." I say scoffing and crossing my arms. "Jungkook-ah." Jin says, leaving me confused. Jungkook gets up, and pulls me onto his lap.