Virulence|yoongi!centric!fluff!angst!trigger warning!~e n j o y~

~d i x - h u i t~

I'm so afraid for Jimin and all of the other members. So afraid.

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Yoongi pov

I woke up (again) in my bed and I decided to go downstairs and saw Hoseok sitting on his phone. Well I wasn't going to admit it but, I was craving attention. I made my way over to the couch and clung onto him. 

"Yoongi hyung?" Hoseok asked, confused. "Are you okay?" I nodded, giving him a feeling a relief. "Hoseok-ah," Hoseok turns over to me. "Hm? What is it hyung?" I sigh. "Do you ever feel...trapped? You know, trapped in this idol persona thing? It just....it sucks." There's moment of silence.

"I get what you mean," Hoseok says, suddenly breaking the silence. "I have J-Hope. He's fun and happy and always full of hope. While Jung Hoseok....Jung Hoseok feels sad or anxious at times." I completely understand what he means and it feels like he completely understands me.

"Yoongi hyung," Hoseok says looking at me. "Who is Suga?"

"Well, Suga is tough, he's badass, and he's basically a savage." 

"Now, who's Min Yoongi?" 

I bite my lip. The thoughts that come to my mind are hurtful and mean.

He's anxious.

"He's anxious."

He's weak.

"He's weak."

He's empty.

"He's empty."

He's a crybaby.

"He's a crybaby."

He's a freak.

"H-he's.....he's a freak." I finally say, tears spilling from my eyes. Hoseok pulls me in tight for a hug. "Let it out, hyung. I'm right here." I choke on a sob as tears blur my vision. "I'm right here."

I dry my tears and cling on to Hoseok even more. "Hoseok-ah..." 

"Am I a really a freak?" He holds me tighter. "No, Yoongi, you're far from being a freak. You're amazing and those haters shouldn't mean anything to you at all." He says. "You're special, hyungie~~," Hoseok says pinching my cheeks.

"Hobi-ah~~~," I whine. He pats my cheeks. "I really do mean it though. You are special," He says smiling at me. Hoseok has that kind of smile that makes you wanna smile along with him, so I smile too.

"I just wish I could make you see that." At this point, my feelings are all over the place so I don't even try to hold back the words that come out of my mouth.

"You can't see what's nonexistent."

Hoseok hugs me as I drew a long sigh. I don't think they seem to get it. I have about three different masks. The badass, savage rapper Suga and The Min Yoongi who swears he's alright even though he's lying through his teeth and The Min Yoongi who actually isn't okay and wants to die.

"I'm hungry." I say out of no where. "Yeah, me too." Hoseok says. "Okay, let's go bother Jin hyung." Hoseok and I make our way to the kitchen where we see Jin already setting food on the table.