"I'm not the monster on the inside." • [Tom x Reader]

𝟚. There is always something in the way

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Tom then climbed into bed with me but goes behind me to spoon me. I smiled a lot when he did that and closed my eyes. With him behind me I was easily able to fall asleep. I love him so much.

Toms POV

I was still awake. I couldn't sleep on a night like this. It sit up and slowly sneak my way out of the bed and sit at the chair at my desk. I began to feel me change.

I pant quietly as it wasn't a peaceful change.. I felt my horns grow. I winced as the headache began. I turn to my desk, putting my elbows on the table and leaning my head down into my forearms.

I groaned from the the pain, it was horrible. I felt my mouth beginning to hurt and next my legs. I slightly grip my own hair as this process continues I go though. I tried my absolute best to stay quiet so y/n wouldn't wake up to see me like this. Who knows what she would do if she sees me like this.

I tried to keep my radiance down. My radiance is something that reflects off of me... and it only reflects when I begin to change. I need to be careful of that due to... a certain someone won't find me... he had been hunting me down for years now and somehow was never able to find me. Well- I take that back. His men found me a few times.. I had no choice to kill them when they did find me. I do regret it but it's for my safety and y/n's... who knows what they will do to her when they find out I'm living with her.

After many minutes the pain soon eased away. I rigged running my hand through my hair, finally looking back up. I looked into the mirror I had above my desk and sighed at the reflection I saw. I hated it.

My ears were long and hand a point, my eyes produced with purple mist, I have two horns poking out of my head, my teeth are sharp, my arms and whole body is covered in patches of dark purple. I got taller and over all I just hated seeing what I saw. This wasn't me, and would never be..

"Tom..." I heard near me. I shot my head to the side. "Come back..." it was y/n.. but she was still laying down. "I'm cold..." she says. I sighed softly getting up. I hoped to god she didn't see me like this. "I'm coming..." I said quietly and went to go lay behind her. Spooned her again and softly nuzzled my face into the back of her neck, making sure she didn't feel my horns. "Thank you..." she mumbled leaning into me. I sighed softly, I closed my eyes trying to relax my myself. Stress also makes my radiance act up. I just hoped that no one caught my signals..

I checked the time and sighed seeing that it was only one in the morning. I did feel tired but the type of tired to where I couldn't sleep. This usually happened when this happens on these nights. I'll just wait it out I guess..

Y/n POV

I woke up that morning to Tom bit by my side. I slowly sat up, looked around and didn't see him there. "Tom..?" I softly called out. There was no response back.

I stood got up, fixing the his hoodie that I was wearing to cover my panties and walked out of his room. Even know there was no need too, I just liked how big his hoodie was on me.

"Tom?" I called out once again but a bit louder. "I'm downstairs y/n!" Tom called out from downstairs. I sighed softly in relief and went down there. He never wakes up this early.