(Rewrite) like real people do (davekat)

The nightmares

===> be dream karkat

[slight trigger warning for this chapter]

run...

run...

RUN...

i was running but i couldnt feel my feet.. i looked down and my feet.. were bare? i look back up and touch my cheek.. and its wet? am i crying? 

"hey karkaaaat..." someone calls out from behind me. i look back trying not to trip... i see three figures running after me, my heart starts racing as i realize whats going on. I'm being chased by them again. it doesn't matter how fast i run they always catch up and despite knowing this i still continue to run... i run and turn a corner in efforts to escape them but as always i trip.

i trip and fall into a puddle, i flip over and of course before i can get up and start running again the figures are hovering above me. I'm crying again.. "fuck..." i whisper. i know what comes next. this isn't my first time going through this. One of the figures reached down and grabbed the collar of my shirt, pulling me up and backing me up against a wall. "so vantas what'll it be today, huh?" they asked a little louder than a whisper. they inched closer to my face and shut my eyes.

i knew what was going to happen next...

i sprung up out off bed panting, trying to catch my breath. i look around the pitch black room trying to find the alarm clock, it read 4:13 am... "fuck... why is it so early..." i whisper. i decided its probably best to start getting ready for school.  i am karkat vantas, I'm 16 turning 17 soon. today is the first day of sophomore year and i have absolutely no fucking idea what I'm going to do. i moved here to texas in the fourth grade and being the new kid who is also a troll fucking sucks ass. i never believed in bullying or that it could be this bad till i started fifth grade.

i got out of bed and walked over to the light switch, flicking the light on and hissing at how bright it is. i let my eyes adjust to the light before going to pick out an outfit. i walk over to my closet and open the door. i pull out gray jeans from a shelve and a black turtle neck with the cancer sign on it. i walk out of my room quietly trying not to wake anyone in the house up. i cross the hall and walk into the bathroom, i shut the door behind me and flip the switch on. i stand there and look at myself in the mirror.

my head is filled with self deprecating thoughts...

pathetic freak. nobody likes you stop trying. i hope you end up dead in a ditch somewhere.

the voice in my head hissed all these things to me... i threw my things onto the counter and clutched chunks of my hair. make it stop please i can't handle theses thoughts anymore... red tears pricked at my eyes. i shut them for a second and take a deep breath, i open them and turn to start the water.

i undressed and stepped into the shower, i winced as the hot water touched my skin. this is nothing though... I've been through worse.

*very short time skip*

after i got dressed and left the bathroom i went back to my room, closing the door behind me softly. i walked over to my desk and sat down opening my laptop. The time read 5:01 am... i still had about an hour before had to leave and start walk to school. I opened trollian and started trolling John, he's probably up right now.. hopefully.

carcinoGeneticist has started trolling ectoBiologist

CG: JOHN ARE YOU UP?

EB: yeah! whats up karkat?

CG: CAN WE MEET UP SOMEWHERE THIS MORNING? I DONT WANT TO BE ALONE.

EB: oh sorry dude, i kinda already told dave id hang with him this morning. D:

CG: SERIOUSLY?

CG: WHY DO YOU STILL HANG OUT WITH THAT DOUCHE IF YOU KNOW HOW HE FUCKS WITH ME?

EB: karat i can't just stop being friends with him :/

EB: ive known him since kindergarten he's like my brother I'm sorry

CG: YEAH WHATEVER FINE ILL JUST HANGOUT WITH SOLLUX AND HIS FRIENDS THEN

CG: IM GONNA GO NOW BYE JOHN

carcinoGeneticist has ceased trolling ectoBiologist