Oops! This image does not follow our content guidelines. To continue publishing, please remove it or upload a different image.
dear moon,
how can this be? how can there be so much pain and ceaseless sadness? i continue to fail to understand. why am i the way i am? uncle josh would understand. he always understood. uncle josh said i feel more than others. he said that it's okay because it makes up for those who don't feel at all. he said i help people like him, who've been through too much. i'm good at supporting people. i'm good at making them feel better.
but if that's true then why is he dead? why do i cause pain and misery to others? it should've been me.
i can't tell anyone about this because they're all worried that i might get bad again. my brain is just always like this. i am always a little happy and a little sad and sometimes one of them overwhelms the other and then i am empty.
hajime and tōru have quickly but surely become my favorite part of being alive. i've never had friends like them. they make me feel so safe, and okay. it almost makes me want to spill my thoughts to them. almost.
we're spending Saturday together and then on sunday, tōru is going to watch hajime while he teaches me how to swim. as long as i'm with them, i know i won't drown.
always with love,
hoshi
not edited
uwu another little journal entry <3 my poor baby. I hope you like this so far ! plz vote and comment your thoughts !! <3 stay safe, make sure to eat and drink enough water <3 quarantine is tough but necessary, feel free to message me if you're bored <3
