Happy, But Broken.

New Friends

I was probably staring at him for about 5 minutes. He is just so gorgeous. His eyes, his smile, and his everything. His voice makes me feel weird things in my stomach; I have never felt this way before. Is this how what people call "butterflies in your stomach" feel like?
What should I say? What if I embarrass myself and he laughs at me? I don't want that to happen, but I really want to respond. Why am i feeling like this? While I was staring at him it seemed as if we were both the only ones in the room. I sound so cliche I know I just can't help but feel this way about him I barely met the guy what is wrong with me? I decided to not answer but just smile back at him.
He smiled back! Oh my god I'm going to scream. I sound like a fan girl. I've met this guy just today and I'm fan girling over him? I feel pathetic. Not that fan girls are pathetic; I myself am I fan girl sometimes. He just makes me feel funny things.
I decide to just focus on what Ms. Hilton is teaching so I turn my attention to her and what she is trying to explain. It has been 20 minutes and I suddenly feel like someone is looking at me. I know it's coming from behind me so I discretely turn around and immediately turn around when I realize it was James. I had totally forgotten he was in this class. I still felt like he was staring and I felt so uncomfortable, and I think Jake noticed because he gave me a little note that said "Hey are you okay? You seem so uncomfortable, and if I were guessing a bit scared." I read the note and I turned to him and nodded saying yes. In reality I wanted to say "No, actually I am uncomfortable and scared because of the one person who ruined my life is staring at me and it's terrifying." I wouldn't say that though.worried. He seemed to be hesitant to believe me, but I was glad he just let it go and we payed attention to class.

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My 4 first classes went smoothly, and now it was lunch time. Oh, lunch time the place where you can get away from people. It can also he scary specifically if you don't have a group to hang out with. There's the popular group, the nerd group, the girly group, the "I'm better than you" group, and many more groups and I fit in none of the above. I just don't fit in anywhere at all.
Tracy where are you? She's nowhere to be seen this is getting me frustrated. I give up and decide i'm just going to go to tree I used to hang out in when I wanted to be alone. I start walking towards the tree when I see Tracy she's sitting with about 3 of people. She didn't even look for me? Why would Tracy do that? I tried to walk past them, because I didn't want to intrude in their conversation. I walk as quickly as I could. I wouldn't be mad at her of course while I wasn't at school she would get new friends... maybe even better than me. Finally, I could see the tree and lucky for me no one was sitting there. So close, yet so far.
"Hey, Diana!" I turn to see who's calling me, and to my surprise it was Britney. "What's up? Do you have anyone to sit with?" I shake my head saying no. "You could sit with us if you want!?" She looks so excited.
"I don't want to bother" I really didn't want to be a bother.
"Nonsense!" She's looks so sweet, and I obviously can't say no to her. "Come with me. I'm going to introduce you to my one and only best friend Marcus."
As I follow her to the table I notice that it is actually far away from all the other people. This makes me more comfortable. We start getting closer and I see a person who I assume is Marcus.
"HEY LOSER!" I see him jump and I can't help but chuckle. "Marcus, meet Diana Rose she was ny childhood best friend! Isn't it crazy that we go to the same school now, and we recognized each other! Oh my god it's so crazy!" She kept rumbling.
"Hey, Diana!" He smiled at me "Nice to meet you." The way he said it made me feel like he meant it. "Britney here gets pretty excited easily, you could say she's a bit crazy" Britney slap him in the head after he said that. "Hey! you know it's true."
"Anyways... how has school been so far?" Hmm, how has school been? All my classes are easy, my teachers are pretty nice, and most of all I met Jake. I have no idea what he makes me feel but let me just say I have never felt this way before. Jake makes me feel butterflies and he just makes me want to scream! "Um, Diana are you still here with us?"
"Oh! I'm so sorry." I wonder how long I zoned out. "Yeah school has been pretty good so far." I could not help but sound shy.
"No need to be shy with us Diana we won't judge you!" Marcus tells me this and I feel like he is telling the truth.
"Yeah you are now among the less judgmental people in this school" I honestly believe her because this school has the most judgmental arrogant people ever.
Marcus and Britney have made me feel welcomed here. I know we will be really good friends.
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After lunch is over we had two more periods to go. All throughout lunch Marcus and Britney were goofing off and being themselves. Being yourself is one of the best traits anyone can have. I liked it, being with them it made me feel like I belonged.
My next class was English I quite enjoy this class. I had this class with Brittany. Mrs. Carmen started introduced us to the next project that we will work with. It's going to be in partners and I hope I get someone I know because well I don't know many people here so........
Why wouldn't Tracy look for me? Or at least send a text explaining why she didn't. Maybe she just doesn't want to introduce me to her new friends, but if she hadn't looked for I wouldn't have met Marcus and gotten to know Brittany better. I kinda zoned out for a minute when I realized that Mrs. Carmen called out my name and Brittany's name. I guess we're partners for this project. I'm glad I got her as my partner.
I turn to look at her only to find a smiling Brittany looking at me. She mouths 'yay' while smiling. Her smile is so contagious I can't resist but smile back.

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Not the best! Ahhhh! Beeen so long since I updated this story. I wonder if people actually even like it?
How is school going for you guys? Mine is going well tiring as hell but what can we do right?
I'm sick at the moment and it sucks so much I swear I've sneezed 50 times today!
Well tell me if I made any mistakes and if you liked it!^.^