There comes a time in life when we just have to let go of things that really mean a lot to us just to avoid the pain they might bring back. I had to let go of two of the best things I ever had my grandmother and my older brother. There is a lot of thing I miss them, but one of them is that they didn't judge me they loved me the way I was. My grandmother use to tell me "You're too young to let the world break you.'' she was a really wise woman, and my brother use to say this little poem when we would see each other every time he came home it went like this "Brother and Sister, together as friends ready to face whatever life sends" whenever i was sad he would say that to me i miss him so much. I miss both of them. Once I overheard my grandmother saying "Her eyes, they used to shine so bright" to my mother but when i saw my mother she was ignoring her a week later my grandmother was dead.
One more week and school would start this sucks i don't want to go back to the place it's a living hell. The only person i miss is my best friend Tracy, yes i have a best friend she's the only one that understands the only person that tries to help me with my problems, she's everything i could ask for.
My phone started ringing with one directions song Diana i love that song so much not only because it has my name but it because the song's about all the fans who are who are suicidal,depressed,all of us. Princess Diana was suicidal,bulimic self harmed, and was depressed. They know what most of us have been through, they're basically saying we're not alone and that we're their princesses. Yes if you haven't notice I'm a directioner for life.
I answered my cell phone, i knew who it was the only person that always calls me Tracy.
"Hey!!" she said happily. I swear she's one of the most happiest girl i've ever known even though her baby sister died 4 months ago she manages to stay happy and peaceful. On the other hand there's me the suicidal and non positive girl that just thinks about killing herself every ten seconds.
" Hey, what's up?" I say in a low voice. She hates it when I'm depressed, sad or anything she would try to do anything to make me feel better.
'' What's wrong baby doll? are you okay? want me to go to your house" She kept on going on and on she cared about me that is what i love about her that she is one of the few people that still care about me.
" I wish I could explain in beautiful words how this sadness wraps around my body and chokes me with firmly placed hands, but all I can really say about my sadness is that it is current and it is exhausting and i don't believe i can do this" I tell her i tried to say that nothing was wrong but it is hard to lie to her she's my best friend and i love her and she loves me.
" Dianna what happened you were so strong during this whole month." i could totally feel the worry in her words i made me feel bad telling her that. " You want me to go to your hou...?"
I cut what she was about to say "No you don't have to." i said but i knew she was still worried. two minutes of silence came then i said something before it got awkward " Tracy I might seem strong, but i break you know." I just honestly tell her. "I feel suffocated with all this i hate thinking about the past how he treated me, how they all judged me. Tracy you're the only one that gets me, that loves me, and that cares about me. That is why i love you." i really did well not in a lesbian kind of way a friend kind of way .
"Diana, always always know i love you okay and I always will. Please stay strong." she always knows what to say to make me feel better.
"Thank you Tracy you always know what to say, hey i have to go, gotta buy school materials." I really did i had to go my mom's making me ughhh i just want to be lazy. '' Not really exited about school you know."
"Hey don't worry everything will be okay. He is so going to regret leaving you!" she sounded so confident. " well buy! love you."
"Bye love you too" This girl is one of the things that keeps me going on.
Later that night i bought all my stuff for school yuppie, can you tell the sarcasm. I'm not happy that i have to see his face again what if he makes fun of me again, what if he humiliates me again. i really don't want to go. one more week........
Sometimes we're broken
and we don't know why.
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Well I'm ignoring my friend at this moment it is hard but i want to see what she would do to get my attention again lol #sorrynotsorry
i really hope people like or at least read my story.
Well goodnight people.
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Happy, But Broken.
Romantizm▪□▪□▪□▪□▪□▪□▪□▪□▪□▪□▪□▪□▪□▪□▪□ Diana Rose is just another insecure girl in this big world. She will find love but she will have to fight against her insecurity to be with him. They will both have to go through tough times to be together. But in the...
