Not gonna lie. Today, i received the best morning texts ever. Never felt so appreciated by someone for the past 6 months. Meeting you was something i never thought. Even if we were still awkward sometimes, that's okay cause i feel comfortable when i'm around you. I want to thank you for every single little things that you did for me. Such like gave me a ride after school or course even it's like a 9pm and you're sleepy, you still managed a time for me. I like it when you pat your -not so normal size- hand on my head, that's cute.
I already said to you that i hate myself a lot, feels like there's no love that i could deserve. But you told me that you're lucky to ever met me, i don't know, that words is kinda strange for me cause i never heard that before from anybody else. I want to thank you for believing me even when i can't believe in myself. Sorry if i'm worrying you so much, sorry if i ever disappeared and not replied to your text. I still got a mental breakdown sometimes and i turned off my phone so i could make a space for myself to breath. Thank you for accepting me for the way i am, been strugling so much but it felt so much easier when you're next to me.
One time when you're insecure because you felt that your love haven't got to me enough, no you don't. My dear, you're still the best thing ever happened to me. You're the kindest and the softest person i ever known, your actions, your laugh it's adorable. Did i ever told that you looked very cool when you have the jersey on? Because you did. ALSO i'm glad that you knew John Mayer too!! I still remember tho when you gave me the instrument of you played the guitar. The song was one of my best John Mayer's, Slow Dancing In A Burning Room! Bro my heart beats so fast it's just..i'm so glad. Everything about you is just precious to remember.
You know it's great when the feelings are mutual. In a relationship there will definitely be a sense of boredom, if one day you already feel incompatible with me, I hope we can part with good and stay as friends. I hope that you can learn a lot from me because I did learn so much from you. I hope that you can let yourself grow when you're with me and become a much better person.
I could literally wrote you a long ass paragraph because i can't thank you enough. But i think that's it, in conclusion you're the best person ever exist in my senior high school journey. I will support for everything that you decide because i love you!
8/4/20
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