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Heartbreaking news

Dove: hey YouTube it's dove here with my lovely husband Russ. My brother is watching our kids while we go to the hospital. We have been keeping this a secret for a while but my brother thinks I'm just going for a checkup. Technically I am but it's for a baby.
Russell: Dove is pregnant
Dove: we are just going to make sure that the baby is healthy and so I know how many weeks I am.
Russell: Baby number 5 is in the oven
Dove: wow that's crazy 5 kids how are we going to cope with 5 kids I don't know
Russell: fuck it
Dove: *laughs*

Doctor: hey Dove, I am doctor John and I'll be taking a lot at your baby today while your current doctor is off on leave
Dove: okay
Doctor: have you been experiencing and pain or bleeding
Dove: no

Doctor: okay let's see your baby *does ultrasound*
Russell: is everything okay?
Doctor: I'm really sorry guys, I can't see a heartbeat
Dove: what *in tears*
Doctor: you have had a mis miscarriage, I'm so sorry guys. I'll leave you alone for a while *walks out*
Russell: *hugs*
Dove: *hugs him and cries*
Russell: it's okay, when the time is right we can try again
Dove: I love you
Russell: I love you too *kisses her head*

Dove: what did I do wrong *cries*
Russell: you did nothing wrong, these things happen and I don't know why
Dove: Then why did I loose our baby if I did nothing wrong
Russell: *cries* don't blame yourself, you did everything you could to make our baby safe and happy while you could.
Dove: we better pick up the kids
Russell: you going to be fine seeing the kids
Dove: yeah I want my babies right now
Russell: okay hun

Ryland: hey, you okay?
Dove: yeah I'm fine
Ryland: you sure cause you look like your gonna cry and that's scaring me
Dove: *breaks down*
Ryland: what happened? *hugs*
Dove: I went to the hospital to have a check up my baby
Ryland: so your pregnant?
Dove: *cries* not anymore
Ryland: what do you mean
Dove: I had a miscarriage *cries*
Ryland: oh my god *hugs*
Russell: *hugs dove* it's okay honey
Dove: I need to know what I did wrong
Ryland: you did nothing wrong
Shane: what's going on?
Ryland: Shane, come outside for a minute *they go out the room*
Shane: what's happening with dove is she okay?
Ryland: she had a miscarriage
Shane: what that's awful
Dove: *picks up phone*
Russell: what you doing?
Dove: I need my mom
Russell: okay
Ryland: where's dove gone?
Russell: she phoning your mom
Ryland: okay
Russell: hey Grey *picks up* your getting so big aren't you. Your so cute *kisses* and look at your Karma. You have may too much energy missy. And you Bella are my little angel. Your the best behave one *laughs*
Ryland: you okay?
Russell: I'm fine it's dove I'm worried about right now

Russ: honey we have to go home now, I'm working on a night shift.
Dove: I don't wanna be alone right now can I stay here Ryan?
Ryland: cause you can
Russ: okay, I'll see you in the morning sweetheart *kisses her* I love you
Dove: love you too

I sat on the sofa, I can remember when I found out I was pregnant with Perrie and how scared I was but when I saw that first scan I fell in love with her and the I knew she depended on me. The triplets were a big surprise but a beautiful one. I remember how happy we were to find out that we were having another baby and then when we found we were having babies the moment became even more magical. I love my husband more than anything and I feel like I've let him down.

Ryland: Hey you okay?
Dove: I just want to know what happen, I've had 4 healthy kids.
Ryland: I know you want answers but these things just happen I'm afraid sweetheart
Dove: I feel like I've failed, as a mother and a wife
Ryland: this is not your fault you know that right
Dove: *nods*
Ryland: can you say that?
Dove: *cries* no, not yet
Ryland: *hugs* it's going to be okay
Dove: I so wanted to have another baby but this is sign. I'm not meant to have another baby
Ryland: you will be able to have another baby, you'll real ready to try again. I know it hurts now but soon you'll be strong enough to have another baby
Dove: I love you Ryland
Ryland: and I love you