i'm fucking sick and tired of this.
i wake up, i feel depressed
i go to school, i feel depressed
i go home, i feel depressed
i hang out with friends, i feel depressed
there's nothing left for me i'm just fucking helpless
the wellness center didn't do shit for me, sure it was nice at first but now nothing's working
nothing ever works.
drugs don't work
alcohol doesn't work
sex doesn't work
cutting doesn't work
burning doesn't work
punching brick walls doesn't work
asking for help doesn't work
talking to others doesn't work
nothing has worked and i don't know what else to do.
i'm scared.
i'm scared i won't see my mom for weeks on end
i'm scared my aunt will bring drug dealers to my house
i'm scared my brother will sexually assault me again
i'm scared to ask for help because
i'm scared i'll be sent to a hospital in suicide watch
i'm scared to live
but i'm also scared to die
yet i want to die to stop the pain and fear of living...
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Rants I Found in My Phone
Aléatoire⚠️ trigger warning..?(please don't judge how dramatic i was/am) it's 6:44 am and i haven't slept but i'm lying in bed with ice on my wrists and i found some rants in my phone and thought "hey i have no friends to rant to why not post them for random...
