it's been a month since me and ethan made out. i know, it's been a while.
not that i'm craving some form of touch from him everyday.
ethan has seemed to go back to usual. that being him always flirting with me, hanging out, and just being himself. however, the constant hooking up is new. he had his few one night stands here and there before our "incident", but never every other day like now. it's like i triggered something in him.
i hated it. i don't want to admit it, but when his hook ups would walk out or greet me, i immediately became pissed.
or when i caught ethan and whatever hoe he was fucking, making out. my day got ruined.
this can't be jealousy, i'm dating grayson...
he asked me out a few weeks ago. he set up a fort out of pillows and blankets in my apartment and hung lights everywhere. it was the cutest thing ever. he was grinning from ear to ear.
i couldn't say no to him. i loved the kid.
ever since he asked me out, we've been hanging out constantly. even more than before. we did couple stuff, went out on dates, made out all the time, and went everywhere together.
we haven't done it tho. i was too insecure and it just didn't feel right. we've been best friends forever.
then what am i doing in a relationship with him? maybe if i fuck grayson, it will make me get over ethan. not that i needed to.
what am i thinking?!? i can't use grayson. i love him. this is meant to be.
but i love ethan too. this feeling that's been growing, isn't cause of grayson. i wanted ethan. but i felt as if he didn't want me anymore.
it was wednesday afternoon, and there were no practices for sports, so of course, me and gray were chilling in his room. he was playing fortnite, yelling about something. probably him dying. i got used to this. sometimes it seemed i was only around to mess around. it made me feel gross. i hated making out all the time and never just enjoying each other's company, like we used to.
ethan was in his room, probably sleeping since i didn't hear any moaning. gross. i decided to sleep myself.
when i woke up grayson was gone and his tv was off. i rub my eyes, taking in my surroundings. i see a sticky note on his mirror.
"went to get some groceries. be back around 7 <3"
i rolled my eyes. always getting groceries. i looked at the clock, seeing it was only 6:00. i sat there in graysons bed, thinking about nothing for 10 minutes. i'm bored.
i make me way to ethan's room, PRAYING no hoe was in there and ethan was clothed. i just wanted to hang out. i feel like i haven't seen ethan in forever.
i knock on his door. i wait a minute. right before i knock again he opens the door, revealing himself to be almost fully clothed.
his goddamn shirt was off. of fucking course. just my luck. his eyes were barley open and his hair was messy.
i'm a faithful girlfriend.
"hey e. grayson left a while ago to get groceries and just let me sleep in his bed. i just wanted to see if you'd wanna hang? i can see that i've woken you up, i can go." i blurt out. he just stands there, like he didn't take in anything i just said. i turn to go.
he doesn't stop me.
i walk away, feeling his eyes burn a hole through my skull the entire. i stop at the end of the hallway.
