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8

People often told me that I'm selfish. I never believed them until today.

I am standing outside of yugyeom's house. I don't what's going on inside. But i can hear some yelling. I knocked the door twice, thinking about every possible things that can happen in a few minutes.

The door opened. It's yugyeom's dad.
He looked scary, eyes red, hair messy, breathing heavily.

"Hello, uncle. Can i come in?"

"Oh, Jungkook. Sure, come in. Thanks for coming so fast."

Yugyeom's dad called me beforehand, asking me to come over because he has something very important to talk about. I know what he's gonna say but i don't know how is gonna say that.

"Umm... Thanks." i awkwardly entered the house, walking towards the living room. I can see yugyeom's mom and his brother and sister sitting there. They seem very tensed. I wonder where is yugyeom.

"Jungkook, have you talked to yugyeom? Do you know where he is?" yugyeom's mom asked me hastily. I was taken back from the sudden question.

'How and why would i know where yugyeom is? Isn't he supposed to be at home?'

"Um... I-i... D-don't.." Yugyeom's older brother cut me before i could say anything.

"It's fine, jungkook. Mom is just tensed. Yugyeom had a fight with us and then he left home with.. um.. a-a.. b-boy." he answered with so much hatred. I heart skipped a beat.

'Yugyeom left? But why?'

"I-I'm sorry, aunty. I haven't talked to him. When did he leave?"

"That day when you called me." she said softly, eyes showing how much it's hurting her.

"O-oh.. Please don't worry, aunty. I'm sure he'll come back." i tried to console her, giving her some hope.

"NO. He isn't coming back. He left us for good." Yugyeom's dad said, determined.

"How can you say this? He's our son. How can you be so heartless?" she said, now crying profusely.

"He's not our son. He can't be. Our son can never be a faggot. He was a shame to our family. I'm glad, he left us."

I didn't know what to say. The atmosphere there is so negative. I fiddled with my fingers, sometimes, glancing towards everyone. Then it hit me. Yugyeom.

'Yugyeom is gone. Oh my god! He left. He left his family. He l-left me. His family hates him. They loathe him. All of these, because of m-me. I-I did this to him.'

I felt so guilty, so ashamed, so selfish. I sat there, speechless. My mind working like lightning. All of my other senses become numb.

Yugyeom's dad called me, twice. I couldn't answer him, i couldn't raise my head. He came close to me holding my hand, i looked at him, my eyes tearing.

"I'm so grateful to you, jungkook. You did a good job. Thanks for telling us the truth. We owe you, jungkook."

These words hurt. Hurts so much. I felt the pain and discomfort in my chest. I felt tension, pressure, a squeezing sensation in the chest... I couldn't breathe for a minute.

'You did this, jungkook. It's your fault.'
It's all i can hear.

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"JUNGKOOK! JUNGKOOK!" I heard taehyung calling me from behind. I didn't have the courage to face him. I kept walking, ignoring him.

Taehyung tugged my hand, yanking me towards him, forcing me to look at his eyes. But i couldn't.