Just Ellie

Fine

Ellie's POV
"Honey wake up"my mom said silently crying
"W-what" it was the middle of the night
"Something happened to your sister, s-she k-ki-kill" she couldn't even get the words out. She broke down in my arms as I held her
Time skip
We were all wearing black. She really did it, she took the pills and it happened. S-she killed herself. My sister, I don't understand. She seemed so happy, like everything was okay. I was in my own thoughts when Ava came up to me while I sat one the couch, the funeral was held in our home.
Ava walked up to me. "Hey, um I'm sorry."
"You don't need to be that bitch was being selfish." I snapped back. I don't process my emotions well. Sometimes I think that I can't feel, like no one can reach my heart. I'm living a great life with a now not so great family.
"Don't say that" Ava says putting her hand on my shoulder.
"Why not, it's true and you know it." I was stressed out with this, I couldn't take it.  A couple days ago everything seemed okay.  The last I remember before hearing the news was texting Noah after I said goodnight to Ava.  My world, it shattered, it was now broken.  She wasn't there.  I never even said goodbye.  I mean do you know how that feels?  I couldn't breathe so I went outside. I sat on the steps outside of my family's or what's left of it house.  There were tears in my eyes I refused to blink and let them fall, I don't cry.  A shadow appeared in front of me and I moved to the side so they could get inside the house.  But, the person didn't move, their feet were planted to the ground, it was a male.  I looked up to see Ryan. 
"What are you doing here, you weren't invited."I said
"Um hey" he said with the softest voice I've heard him speak with yet.
"Please don't have sympathy for me."
"I'm sorry"
"Again don't have sympathy for me, you don't need to be sorry because it's not your fucking fault."  I basically screamed that while we could both here my  voice crack because I was in the verge of tears, trying to choke them back and swallow them down.  He looked down at me with compassion in his eyes.  They looked hurt, he walked up to me, sat down and hugged me.  It felt kind of nice.
"You can be emotional" he spoke with a quiet voice.
I let the tears fall, I hugged back and as we sat there together, I felt safe.  It felt nice for once, I was being taken care of.  I wasn't the caretaker.  We sat there for a while.  It was peaceful, he smelled nice- I mean not that I smelled him I just happened to be silently crying into his chest while he held me and got a little whiff of his cologne.
"Oh I'm sorry for interrupting" I heard a voice come from behind me.  I quickly pulled away from him and looked down.
"It's okay Aaliyah, you weren't interrupting anything."  I said with a stern but quiet voice.
"I'm gonna go I just wanted to see how you were doing."  Ryan whispered in my ear.
He touched my back and i felt shivers run down my back.  It felt electr-no Ellie do not think like that.
"Bye bubbles," he called out.
"Oh uh yeah bye Ryan."
"Hey" she said
"Please stop I can hear the sadness in your voice."
"Oh sorry"she said quietly.
"Don't be sorry, it's not your fault, it's her fault, it's her fucking fault and we can't do anything about it!"
"Hey bby, Ellie calm down"
"I'm-I'm sorry"
"So we're swearing now aren't we."  Aaliyah earned a small chuckle from me.
"No, it's just the stress."
"Well, I like it," she giggled. " Also what is up with you and the bad boy."
"He's not a bad boy, and nothing is up with us," I laughed.
"Oh, so you're defending him I see."
"Shut up, he's not a bad boy, he's a man whore."
We talked for a little then I saw a face I NEEDED to see.
It was Noah.  He walked up to me and gave me a hug.  He was so smart, no words, no "I'm so sorry" he knew I couldn't deal with that or else I would scream and have a mental breakdown.  He broke the hug and stared at me.  I could see the sadness in his eyes.  My sister and him were pretty close.  We would all spend time together when we were little and he really loved her.  Not romantically, but like sibling love.  We shared the same expression,  we were just like that.
Ryan's POV
I asked my brother where her house was.  I heard about her sister and I felt bad. Really bad, I could relate to her. That's the only reason why though.
I was driving and when I got there I see her outside on her front porch steps. I walked up to her and when she looked at me I could see the hurt in her eyes. I really did feel bad.
Back to Ellie's POV (sorry)
The next day came. My mom told me I didn't have to go to school but I wanted to. I didn't need days to process my emotions. There was nothing to process. I decided to walk, I didn't want to see the pity on the girls' faces when we drove together. Maybe I shouldn't go, you know what I'm gonna skip. I was only a couple blocks away from my house so I turned back around to go get my car. I ended up driving to school. I'm so stupid, I wasn't supposed to come here. At least no one else was here, school started so a lot of people were inside. I saw Ryan's car, not far from mine actually, there was a motorcycle next to it. A man was standing there.  I later realized it was Nick,  so, I walked over there.  I was bored who could blame me.  When I got there I saw Ryan in his car, I guess his window was open because he and nick were talking.
"Oh look, hey princess," Nick said as I chuckled a little.
"Hey bubbles," Ryan spoke as it started to drizzle. I put my hood up.
"Hey come in," Ryan said
"Uhm going into a creepy boy's car isn't my ideal location."
"You know I'm not creepy now get in"
"Fine" I said with a huff. Nick got in the back seat and Ryan turned the car on.
"So why weren't you in class,"
"I could ask you the same thing pretty boy"
"Pretty boy, really" he gave a small smirk with a low chuckle and put his hand on my knee.
"Woah there buddy" I said while slapping his hand off of me
"Ow Ellie what the fuck"
"First of all you touched me and don't swear. I don't like it."
"But you swore yester-"
"Ah-ah-ah that does not count," I could here the childish giggling coming from the back.
"So where are we going anyway."
"Somewhere," Ryan said
"Oh my gosh you are so annoying."
"Just shut up, we'll be there soon."
"Fine."
A/n
SHE SPEAKS
Thank you to anybody who is reading this book. Sorry it's been so long , I will try to keep doing more updates for the book since I have a lot more free time. Also sorry because this chapter isn't edited yet and I feel really bad so I'll be doing it later.
Word count: 1300