My Name on Your Lips (Dan Smith Fanfiction)

So What Now....?

ALICE

So, that's you up to date on how I got there. There being a dingy flat in southwest London. I haven't seen Dan in a while, he says he's been busy writing and organising but I can't get past the idea that he's had enough of me and all my shit. I must admit, I think I might be a bit of a live bomb. I drink too much, I'm persistently high or low, I'm unreliable. I find that quite a painful truth but I imagine I haven't been a very good friend to any of them, even although they were always there for me. 

It's early evening now and I decide that It's probably a good time to send Dan a text and ask how he is. I pull out my phone and type:

Hey Dan, hope you lot have settled back in x

After I hit send, I watch my phone like a complete numpty for a fIew minutes. It worries me that I might have drifted away from them, and that if I have it's been totally my own fault. An hour passes and Dan still hasn't replied, so I decide to go for a walk and pick up some food while I'm at it. Wandering through the London streets, beautifully lit and peppered with people, my mind drifts away from Dan and the others. The peace only lasts until I pass the window of a quiet Mexican restaurant, and I spot him. He's standing with a group of friends I haven't met before, chatting happily as he waits for his food. I feel a pang of hurt that knocks me back and I can't bear to watch anymore. Turning my head I furrow my brow to stop myself from crying. I don't want to interrupt. I turn red at the idea of disturbing him, embarrassed for some reason. Still, I can't bring myself to walk away. I decide to buy something from the chip shop opposite and sit on a bench, to hope that he sees me and doesn't just walk away.

A few minutes later, he emerges from the takeaway. He is completely encircled by his friends and I go unnoticed. Another sharp pang lets a tear escape. I'm such a fucking idiot. After that I go home. I don't do much, I sit, I watch and I sleep. I'm flooded with the urge to do something stupid. 

DAN

I've had a lot to do since finishing the tour, things have changed and I think I'm slowly getting back into the swing of being at home. I've seen very little of the band outside of work, which isn't too unusual right after a tour. We need our space. I've been spending a load of time with Ralf and his bunch, we went out for Mexican food last night which was awesome. This morning I saw a text from Alice, but I keep forgetting to reply to it. She's made herself quite scarce since getting home. I don't know where she stays, and to be honest I worry about her a bit. I decide to give her a call instead, to make up for not replying last night but more so because I want to hear her voice. She can't hide behind that so well. 

I call her phone, and she picks up after a few rings:

"Hey, Alice, sorry I didn't get back to you last night. We're doing fine, what about you?"

She stutters a little before saying "I'm doing fine, yeah. Pretty sure I saw you at a takeaway last night, you'll need to reconmend a place"

She seems a bit off with me. This feels formal. I respond, "Oh cool did you, that place is pretty good. You should've popped in a said hi, it's been ages!". 

I think I hear her perk up at that, "Haha sorry, I didn't want to disturb you.". She lowers her voice before saying "I feel like I've been a bit of a headache". 

I feel bad for her. I like having her around. My brain goes into quick fix mode and I make a spontaneous offer, "Where are you staying now, I can pick you up for some lunch?". 

She hesitates, clearly surprised at the sudden interest. "Erm...well...that sounds great If you're up for it. I've missed you a tonne.". Her sweet reply makes me smile. 

"Ok. Is an hour enough time to get yourself out of bed?" I ask. She protests, but her groggy voice gave it away. Jokingly upset that I've busted her, she gives me her address and I leave her to get ready. I'm looking forward to seeing her again, it's been too long

A/N

Speaking of being too long...sorry! I noticed that the style I was using wasn't really very good so I've tried to slowly bring it into first person. It might make it a wee bit better, but please let me know!! Thank you so crazy much.

Love ya. Xxxx