Everlasting Love

Anxiety

Baileys POV

I laid her gently down in the truck.

We laid Beth and Kelsey there till we could find a good place to burry them.

I go in and grab my stuff and throw it in the car they hot wired for me and Carl to drive.I got in and just sat there.

Connor opened the door.

"What are you doing?"

"Coming with you!"She said sweetly.

"No your going with Maggie,You'll be a lot safer with her."

"But I is safe wif you baiwey!"

"No your not!"I said and picked her up and walked towards the other car.

"Yes,Baiwey pwease!"She screamed beating my back.

"What's going on?"Dad said.

"Connor won't go with Maggie as she needs to go cause Maggie can keep her safer."I said.

"What makes you think she won't be safe with you?"He said.

"I could of stop it all I could've paid closer attention to make sure she didn't get kidnapped I could've shot dawn before she said she wanted Noah,I could've saved mika,I could've saved Molly and Luke and everyone."I cried setting Connor down.

Maggie came an hugged me.

"You may think I can but I can keeper as safe as you can.Really your stronger.I could've never carried Beth out of that hospital like you did Kelsey."

I hugged her tightly.She rubbed my back slightly.

"Hey,hey you know what?"She said pulling back and put her hands on my shoulders.

"What?"I said wiping away tears.

"We still have each other."She said.

"Yeah."

"I'll still watch Connor if you want?"She said.

"I'll leave it up to her."I said.

"Ok I'll go get Carl,Airen and Jason while you think about it."I said to Connor.

I walked in the church that was completely destroyed.I told Carl to go on and get his stuff in the car as well as Jason.

"Jason do you know where Airen is?"i asked.

"She's in the bathroom."He said.

I walked towards the bathroom I tapped the door.

"Rainy are you ok?"I asked.

All I heard was crying so I slowly opened the door.I looked at the floor to a pool of blood.

She was in the floor crying as blood poured out of her arms.I shut the door behind me.

"Rainy!Its okay."I said hugging her close.

"I'm sorry I'm so so sorry!"She said.

"I need to die I can't do this anymore Bailey."

"No you don't need to die we need you your strong plus Jason needs you."I said.

"Here look,Dont tell dad and I won't tell him about yours only Carl knows about this."I said pulling the sleeves of my cardigan revealing the long slits on my arms from me cutting.

She let out a gasp as she saw how worse mine were.

"My anxiety is terrible.I cut and cut and cut until I almost black out and Carl helps me wrap them then he just talks about how important I am."I said pulling my sleeve back down.