Ignorance is Bliss

Chapter Seventeen

Chapter Seventeen 

It was quiet. The silence was suffering me. And, as Deidara mercilessly drug me further into the depths of the calm forest, I felt myself beginning to shut down. The blonde's cruel words were echoing around me, as to not let me forget. 

"He's a criminal." 

Tobi's giggles flitted around me, the memory of his warm hugs making me tingle. I had never seen his smile, or his face- but, I'd always assumed they'd both be as innocent and delicate as a child's. Much like he was. 

How could someone I trusted so much, for so long, be as Deidara was? He had never hurt me, like Deidara had. He had never destroyed my property, like Deidara had. He's never made me cry, like Deidara had. 

Tobi wasn't making me leave home, Deidara was. 

And, why? Tobi was harmless. Whereas, the criminal I was with now, wasn't. Why was I going with him? They were partners, I shouldn't have to leave. If Tobi would have meant to inflict harm, wouldn't he have, by now?

I was just a tiny, fragile girl. No threat to anyone. If he wanted me dead, I would be gone. Why waste effort on me? There was no point, really. 

The truth realized out loud hurt. Tobi had been my best friend since the beginning, when we had first met. He'd been there when I needed him most. And, now, Deidara was stripping me away from him. 

"Tobi saw a pretty girl."

I found myself numbly staring at the male, his face void of any emotion. Did he not care, what he was doing to me? How this made me feel?

But he wouldn't, would he? He never has, before. 

Tobi did. 

Evil really did come in the most beautiful of forms. And, as his hand slid away from my wrist, into the palm of my hand, I realized it was him I should be running away from- not Tobi. 

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"We'll stay here for the night. Tomorrow, I have to leave though, un." I nodded, looking around the musty motel room. I had never been in one, before, for I never needed to. And, just looking around made me wish that I didn't. 

Not only was it cheap, and smelled horribly, but these rooms were generally used for only one thing: cheating business husbands and cheap whores. Just the aroma of the place gave that away. 

Deidara rubbed my shoulder, staring at the room distastefully. "It's not very idea-"

"It's disgusting," I interjected, already missing home. And, most importantly: clean sheets. 

"It was the only thing I could find on a last moment basis. You won't be here for long, so just try to endure it, mm." 

I nodded, not in the mood to argue. What I really wanted was sleep. To just forget about Deidara's partner and their stupid organization. Even if it was only for a little while. 

"There's only one bed, but I thought since-"

"Don't worry about it," I interrupted, almost manically. Normally, being here in a cheap motel would be a dream come true. Just for the simple fact of being here with him. And, if the supposed threat had been anyone other than Tobi, I might have been thrilled. If that were the case, I might have actually acknowledged the fact that Deidara was trying to protect me. 

But, it didn't feel like that. I felt as if I had been stripped away. And, when the thoughts started to settle in, the delusions told me that Deidara had done this out of jealousy.

 I was suffocating. 

Then again, Deidara had no reason to be jealous. I was his, if he wanted me. That's how it's always been, and how it always will be. 

But, as we lay in bed that night, I noticed that once again he had turned his back towards me. Just like before, when I had that episode. The only difference was that, now, my hand was broken and he was wearing a shirt. 

Oh, and my best friend was presumably evil. 

The only problem was, was the he wasn't. No many how many times Deidara would scream and yell it, Tobi could simply never be the man blondie claimed he was. No matter what he said, Tobi would always be the tall boy with an impeccably childish voice, who had saved me from sore muscles. 

And, a few hours of heartache. 

But, now that he wasn't here, I decided Deidara would have to do. Because, my chest did ache, and I was tired of the constant cold shoulder. 

I nuzzled my face between his shoulder blades, curling against his back. I felt him sigh, and now that I knew he was still awake, I knew I'd probably get hell for this. So, I waited; for the screaming, the growls, the glares- accusations, rude words, malice. 

But, none of that ever came. 

What did though, completely surprised me. Although, I couldn't say the strong arms that wrapped around me were unwelcome, his behavior had just caught me off guard as Deidara cradled me to his chest. 

"Sh," he soothed, holding me tighter. And, it was only then that I realized I had been sobbing. The aches being relieved onto my face. "Everything's going to be okay," he promised. And, even though I knew he was lying, I let that thought comfort me, content in knowing that he was trying. "It's okay. I have you. You're going to be safe, yeah."

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Did anyone else have a good weekend? For once, mine was spectacular~ Cute guys. omggg. 

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