instagram; luke hemmings

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jacob and i rented a car but when we broke up i took the car. tears were streaming down my cheek as i'm driving and jacob screaming at me before we broke up. i turned up the radio and jacob made a CD with our favorite songs on it

it was a long drive but i stopped along the way, i stopped at the cemetery and i went to moms grave

"mom i miss you a lot it's been two years and i miss you so much, jacob and i broke up" i was crying

"mom he yelled at me for the first time in 4 years the last time he did was when i ruined his brand new car" i began to sob

i went closer to my moms grave stone

"i wish you were still here, i could really use your famous tea" i cried

"louis and eleanor are together again,he is so happy and freddie just turned two, well i have to go now. i miss you and felicite tell her i say hi and i love her" i cried

i got into the car and bruno mars was playing marry you

then the song stopped after the words "i think i wanna marry you" then jacobs voice came on

i kept on driving and turned on jacobs voice

"kelsey tomlinson i have loved you for 6 years since freshman year and i want to love you for many more, will you make me the happiest and marry me" jacobs recording said

i got to the house, my mascara was down my cheek, and i knocked on the door and lottie opened it and hugged me so tight, i cried into her arms

"omg come in" lottie hugged me

we sat in the kitchen and started to cry

"so what happened" she held my hand

"me and him got to the house we were staying in and we are just sitting on the couch my head is on his chest and he's like 'get off i need to get fresh air' and i'm like oh ok i'm sorry, and then he went outside and he had his hands in his face and he was sitting down and i asked if he was ok and he started yelling do i look ok kelsey do i? i'm so sick of you always trying to ask if i'm ok and it's so annoying and i began crying because he was yelling at me  and he's like don't even start crying i hate when you start crying after i slightly raise my voice at you, i hate it so much and then i was crying so hard and i told him fine if you are sick of me crying then i'm leaving and he's like ok fine then we are over and i'm like fine it's over and i left to the inside and i took the keys and left my suitcase was still in the car and then lottie the sad part was he was going to propose to me, jacob loved me, i was listening to his playlist and the marry me comes on and then a voice comes on and it's him asking me to marry him and lottie what am i supposed to do now" i cry

"what you're supposed to do is move on he doesn't need you, you loved him he didn't love you for how you are, you have been so sensitive since mom and felicite died and i have too and i promise you'll find someone better" she hugged me

"lottie it was six years" i sobbed

i then felt 6 other arms wrapped around me

i look up and it's daisy, phoebe and eleanor

i hugged eleanor tight shes like an older sister to me, i only had an older brother louis, louis was the oldest then me and then lottie then felicite and then the twins

"it's going to be ok" she rubbed my back