~Sehun~
I was unpacking my things and putting them in my dresser when my phone vibrated in my pocket. I retrieved it and checked the I.D nearly dropping my phone when I saw who it was from. My heart pounded rapidly against my chest and I unlocked my phone and stared at the message waiting for me.
From: Doe eyes 💔
To: Sehunnie 💕How are you? I heard you were in the hospital, you're not pushing yourself to hard are you?
My breath caught in my throat and before I understood what was happening, my fingers moved across the screen typing a reply.
To: Doe Eyes 💔
From: Sehunnie 💕I'm doing fine, just over exhausted myself
From: Doe Eyes 💔
To: Sehunnie 💕You need to take better care of yourself, I wouldn't be able to take it of something happened to you.
I sighed looking at the message but then felt hurt and anger seep into my bones.
To: Does Eyes 💔
From: Sehunnie💕Why would you care? It's clear you didn't take my well being into consideration when you left.
I threw my phone down, done with the whole conversation, I had laid awake at night for weeks after he left trying to figure out what I did wrong, what had happened to make him leave me... but in the end I always came up with the same answer... I'm alone now.
My phone rang again and I looked at it... 'wait, it's ringing?' My phones only rings when someone is... 'oh shit, he's calling me'
All the blood leaves my body and I feel like I've just been punched in the stomach, but once again my body acts on its own. I pick up my phone and tap the screen answering the call. I'm frozen, I can't say anything, I just listen... waiting to hear his voice.
"Sehun?" He asks.
My lip trembles "yeah?" I ask my voice breaking.
He sighs heavily "Sehun, I'm sorry for calling, I know it can't be easy to hear my voice... I just couldn't stand the thought of you mad at me"
Again I don't say anything, to afraid I would lose the little composure I was grasping onto.
"You don't have to say anything, just listen..." he pauses for a second and I give a small "mhm" indicating for him to continue. "Sehun, I know I've hurt everyone by leaving, and I know you guys think I'm selfish and a traitor, but I did what I had to Se, I did what I needed to do. I wasn't happy with the way everything was, so I took a stand, and I'm sorry if that hurt you guys, but I don't regret my actions"
A hot tear scorched my skin as it slid down my cheek "I understand..." I cleared my throat so I wouldn't give away that I was crying "I understand why you did it Luhan, I just don't understand one aspect of it"
He took a deep breath "what?"
"Why did you leave me? Was I so unimportant to you that you left me behind... Not even telling me goodbye?" I asked not caring anymore that he heard the tears in my voice.
He sniffled a few times and took a stabling breath "no, Sehun, it's the exact opposite... you're the reason I stayed for as long as I did, you were the hardest part of leaving. leaving you behind is the only thing I regret, I regret it every day... I would give anything just to be in your arms one more time... and I'm sorry I didn't say goodbye, but I just couldn't, it was hard enough leaving, but having to see your face as I walked away from you would have destroyed me"
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A Leaders Struggle (SuLay)
FanfictionSuho is the leader of Exo, he has an obligation to uphold a certain image... but what happens when he is unable to hide his feelings for Lay, will Suho break his own heart to protect the rest of Exo, or will he let his heart decide their fate?