avengers one shots

This is me, who i am

i will say now. i wrote this after one of my friends came out as fluid. i am not targeting nat here she was just the only one to fit the bracket i needed to fill. i love and accept every one for who they are i really needed to get this off my chest and its not complete and it may take we a long time to finish it 

Bucky: steve, put something on we are hitting the town

Steve: okay buck give me a few

I walked out wearing a pair of white chuck taylors, a pair of jeans, and a gray and light blue t shirt, pushing down the feeling of how uncomfortable this look was on me today. I looked at bucky and he gave me a small smile. As we walk to the subway i sow a man dressed really girly but they just looked at me with a grin

Jade: can i ask what are staring at

Steve: i um no offense but why are you dressed like that

Jade: oh your captain america and this is friend bucky barnes. Um I am genderfluid there are days i feel like a boy and days i feel like a girl and days that i feel like neither or both. My pronouns are they and them, i am guessing you have questions

Bucky: aren't people going to hurt you for being you.

Jade: not much any more. Most every one is accepting nowadays

We talked to jade more and more, when we get off the subway by the mall, i could not help but feel the same feelings i had before the serum but i had to shove them down, bucky and i were in a shop and now looking around bucky had wandered off, i looked around and realized i was in the womens dress area, looking around. I started to look at dresses when this soft pastel green dress caught my eye, I walked over and looked at it more closely and saw they have them in fairly large sizes, I was seconds away from reaching for one that would fit me.

Bucky: hey what you doing, i was almost to the food court when i didn't see you behind me any more

Steve: oh, sorry i was looking at the color i had being trying to get one of my sketches to match that color

Bucky: well at least you know what shade it is now, come on lets get food i am starving.

We had walked past an art shop, I didn't say anything to bucky about checking it out because I knew he would have been bored out of his mind. As we were waiting for our food, that dress kept creeping back into my mind. Bucky was talking as we ate but i really didn't have anything to say. I finished before bucky decided to hit the art store

Steve: hey bucky i am going to look at that art shop that we passed on the in.

Bucky: okay. Go look at crap normal people have no clue how to use. Just don't came back talkin like a hippie that will teach me how to paint happy little trees cause i will end ya

Steve: okay jerk

Bucky: punk

I threw away my trash and walked to the art store but my brain had other ideas, before I could stop myself I was back in front of that green dress. With one that would fit me in my hands I bit my cheek and walked to the fitting room. I slowly pulled on the dress and zipped the back. I locked myself over in the mirror and started to silently cry, this was something I had been pushing down inside for my whole life. There were days that I felt like a guy which was weird, then days that I felt like a girl also weird,and other days I felt like both and neither which I could never understand, I say on the small seat trying and failing at not having a breakdown in a changing stall. I soldier up really quick when I sow Bucky's boots under the door, my heart sank to the pit of the earth.