Bad Reputation (Camila/You)

Chapter 9

Your POV

So, after Camila and I kissed... I may or may not have freaked the fuck out and stumbled out of her car as fast as I could.

I've never freaked out that much, but then again, it's not every day that your crush will kiss you. She said she wanted to do that for a long time. How long are we talking about though? That's what I'm wondering. And does that mean she kind of, sorta, like me too? Is that why she was always staring at me across the cafeteria? 

And then she also told me that she knew I was purposefully lying about where I lived so that I can bring her home, and she didn't burst my lie because she just wants to spend time with me as much as I want to with her. What?

There are literally so many questions in my head right now. But since I reacted the way I did, she probably thinks I'm crazy now and doesn't want to have anything to do with me anymore. And I genuinely won't blame her because... what the fuck honestly, what's wrong with me?

What if--

"Are you okay?" I heard a concerned voice pull me out of my thoughts. 

I blinked my eyes a few times to shake myself out of my own little world. I was so deep into my thoughts that I just completely zoomed out. "Huh? Yeah, I'm fine."

Dinah looked at me very unconvincingly, but I just shrugged in response. Sure, she's my best friend and I know I can tell her everything, but... I have an odd gut feeling she's not going to be happy when she hears this. I mean, it's not like something major has happened though, it was just a little kiss. 

Suddenly she gasped. "Camila's coming," she said, pointing behind me.

Out of instinct, I immediately duck and tried to get out of here. She quickly grabbed my hand though and laughed out loud. "Chill, I was just joking. She's out having lunch with her cheerleader friends again."

I furrowed my eyebrows at her. "Then why did you do that?" 

"Because Walz was acting weird all morning, and so are you now, so I just wanted to know if you guys are weird because of the same reason," she said nonchalantly.

So Camila was acting weird too. That can literally mean so many things, and I simply don't dare to go through the possibilities. 

Dinah snapped her fingers in front of my face to catch my attention again. "So what happened between you two?"

I casually avoided eye contact with her. "Nothing," I mumbled.

"Y/N/N." I could hear the seriousness in her tone, so I carefully glanced over at her again. She raised her eyebrows at me. "Be honest with me, okay? Do you have a crush on her?"

"Maybe?" I said carefully. 

"Y/N."

She never calls me by my first name, so she got to be serious this time. I sighed to myself and gave in. "Okay, I have a crush on her," I admitted. 

She got really quiet for a second and it was actually starting to scare me. It's not like she didn't know about my sexuality though, and I've had crushes on people before and had told her about it. But she's just never reacted this way.

Finally, she mustered up a tight-lipped smile as she slowly nodded her head. "So, did you two kiss or something?"

I bit down on my lip and hesitatingly nodded my head. 

She ran a hand through her hair and sighed out loud. "Look, you're both my best friend and I love you both with my entire heart, and I'm glad you two are bonding or whatever. But..." she paused mid-sentence and frowned hard. "Whatever might be happening between you two, I don't think Camila's ready for another relationship yet."