I'm In Love With You, You Idiot - Kiribaku angst (has very inconsistent updates)

Chapter 3

!!!F slur and homophobia warning!!!

Bakugo's POV

"Kirishima? What are you doing here?" I looked over at Kirishima and propped myself up on my elbows.

"Sorry if I woke you," he said softly. He was wearing the same outfit from when we went out, and his hair looked... perfect. It wasn't up in the gelled spikes, and it perfectly framed his face.
"No, it's fine," I answered. "But why are you here?"

He took a few steps forward and sat at the edge of my bed.
"There's... something I need to tell you," he said. He wasn't looking at me, and the room was too dark to see his face.

"What is it?" I asked.

Kirishima looked at me. His eyes seemed to sparkle, and he looked beautiful.
"I love you," he answered. "And I've been in love with since forever, Katsuki."

When he said my name, it sounded a bit like my mom which was... weird.

"I love you too, Eijiro," I told him. "But what about Ashido? I though you liked her."

"I don't. I only love you."

Before I knew it, our lips were pressed to each other. My hand in his hair, and his hands on the back of my neck. It all felt too good to be true.

And it was.

Kirishima pulled away, and was looking down. His eyes were covered by his hair and shadows until he lifted his head to look at me with a shit eating grin.

"Holy shit, you actually fell for it! Oh my god." Suddenly that grin turned into a look of utter disgust.
"Jesus, it was just a joke. I didn't think you would actually fall for it," he added.

What the fuck? What the fuck was happening?
"It was a joke?" I asked, the shock visible on my face.

"Yes. It was. Holy shit. Now I'm gonna tell everyone what a little fag you are," he hissed.
"You're gonna be the laugh of the town, you weak fucking fairy."

Tears stung my eyes. "No, I'm not weak. just shut up, Shitty Ha..."
His hair was up in its spikes. I thought it was down?

"Sh- shut up, sh- shitty hair," Kirishima mocked.
"You are weak. You'll never be strong. You'll never beat Midoriya."

"Shut up," I mumbled.

"You're just a fag who's in love with his best friend. Oh, wait, only friend because you're so fucking unlikable. And that friend happens to be me, which is gross."

"Shut. Up."

"I don't even know why I'm friends with you. I hate you, Bakugo."

I raised my fist and sent it flying to his jaw.

"JUST SHUT UP!"

I sit up from my bed, sweat rolling down my forehead, and my chest heaving.
I look around and Kirishima isn't in my room.

I reach up to my face a wipe the tears from my eyes. "Shit."

It was a fucking nightmare. The worst one I've had in a while.

I begin to cry, well, sob. I hate this. why the fuck does it have to be him? Why is he the one I like? Him and his stupid face. His stupid pretty fucking face.

Why him? Why the most stupidly beautiful thing on this fucking planet? Why the fuck does he even exist? He's too perfect! His shitty hair, his stupid eyes, his dumb smile, his face; all of it. Perfect.
But why did I have to fall for that shitty fucking straight, perfect, shitty person?

I hope it was a nightmare. If it fucking wasn't, I would die. If I walk out of here in the morning to see everybody staring at me in disgust, I don't even know what I would do.

I can't fucking breath and I can't stop crying. Somebody fucking help me. Please.

I try to imagine Kirishima helping me. I try to get the nightmare out of my head, but it's fucking hard.

After a good sixteen minutes, I'm finally calm. Every time I move my face I can feel the dry tears. I need water, but my body won't get up. My eyes keep threatening to shut, but when they close the only thing I see is Kirishima's disappointment.

I let my eyelids fall, even though seeing the disgust on Kirishima's face me brings me more pain then my eyes stinging from keeping them open.

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A/N: woah the 3rd chapter is actually here guys.
this ones a bit shorter than the other ones (i think) bUT it's my birthday today uwu. school is a bitch and ngl i haven't been doing the assignments but we don't talk about that.
this was a v short a/n but eh.
have a good one! and remember, it gets better.
have some tea and good luck, too! 🍵🍀