One of a million (robert georges)

Pride.

The chapter before this got deleted but robert leaves without explaining to her what happened after steph leaves and breaks up with her telling her to forget about everything. And this is the day after that so.

"Payson come on wake up." The guys where waking me up i took a shower and got dressed (the pic above.) they made toast and we left. I parked my car in the same place and mattia ale and kai where already there with robert. "Guys i love you but you dont have to follow me you guys can go with them ill be okay i just want to be alone" they nodded and we got off. I waved morning to the guys looking away from robert and i kept walking.  I walked around school until the bell rang. When we got to first period i had it with ale "payson how are you " i hugged him. " umm im ganna be okay" i said and we sat down. I texted layla but they where going to sit with the boys. When lunch came i bought food and i was ganna sit with them until i saw robert and started walking away " payson" i herd my name and didnt turn back "payson wait" i felt a hand on my shoulder. It was robert and mattia "can you please leave me alone im giving you the space you wanted" i told him mattia was trying to take him back to the table. "Im sorry" he said. I looked at him and i felt numb "dont be sorry for being honest. After all it didnt mean anything to either of us" i said quietly so we wouldnt be scandalous. His eyes watered and tears rolled down my face i walked away wiping the tears away. I got in my car and changed into my gym outfit since i had that next period. I didnt even eat my appetite was gone. I was just staring at my wallpaper of robert kissing the corner of my lips. Before the bell rang i started walking i hate walking in crowded halls i passed by them and they didnt say a thing i just felt their stares. Winter break was comming and i was ganna be all alone in my house i had already made plans to have them stay over. Layla walked next to me. " hey beautiful" i smiled at her. "Whats up" i said. "Nothin what period are you going to" i looked at her she has always been a good friend since volleyball. "You know about everything" i asked she nodded yes and hugged me she was the only one i felt i could be really open with atm. "I feel like shit, i love him and i literally gave a big part of me to him for him to just walk away tell me to forget he ever said i love you and just break up with me" i was crying into her shoulder so it was muffled. "Its ganna be okay." I could feel her rubbing my back to calm me down. "And i told him i didnt really love him that it didnt mean anything to either of us since he just left me like i was nothing." She walked me back to my car and we skipped the last two periods. When the bell rang mattia kissed layla and told her he was going to be at roberts house. "Hey pay" i smiled at him like nothing was wrong. And we waved bye. "Robert is hurting payson you guys need to talk" i pulled my window down and started to drive away.
"There is nothing to talk about stop assuming im hurti-" she cut me off "stop payson he was crying just like you he lov-" "he doesnt okay and weather he cried or not its not my problem anymore and it hurts me now but itll go away" i said driving. I stopped at the side of the street and just sat there. "Im sorry layla i love him i really do but idk how to feel and im scared of being played with im not ganna run back to him."