Nekoma Shōyo (Kagehina)

Chapter 1 - Confession

*Hinata's POV*

  I've had this crush on a guy from my volleyball team. He's handsome, tall, he has raven hair and beautiful eyes. He also loves volleyball just as much as me.
  His name is Kageyama, and I've liked him for a while now. Today's gonna be the day when I confess my feelings to him.
  Some people say he's cold, rude and careless, but when you get to really know him, he opens up and turns out really caring and kind. That's probably why I love him, he makes me feel special.
  I invited him behind the club room, where we practice volleyball. I'm extremely nervous, because he's my first crush, I'm scared of rejection.
  After a while he finally arrived.

Kageyama: Hey, dumbass, what's so important to make us late for practice?
Hinata: W-Well I have a question for you...
Kageyama: Then get on with it! You're making us late, idiot.
Hinata: I-I like you! I've liked you for a while now! Will you please accept my feelings and be my boyfriend?
Kageyama: Are you serious? I'm not gay, that's fucking gross! This has to be a joke, you nut-job!
Hinata: I... Really...  do.. l i k e  y o u...

My voice got quieter and quieter with every word as I felt tears form in my eyes. Am I getting rejected?

Kageyama: I'm not fucking gay and I only care about volleyball. Now this better not affect your performance during practice. Get over it and let's go.

  ...How could he be so cold? He doesn't even care about what I'm feeling right now. I want to break down and cry, but I can't cry in front of him right now.
  I ran away, holding my tears back for just a little bit more until I get to the nearest bathroom stall.
  There, I let out all of my feelings by crying. I can't believe he just rejected me... How are we supposed to practice now... That jerk!
  He was my first crush... I liked him so much... But of course he's not gay... I feel so stupid right now, I don't want to exist for a while anymore.
I snapped back to reality when I realized I was already late for volleyball practice. I dashed into the club room.

Hinata: Sorry! Sorry! Sorry!
Daichi: First Kageyama, now you, what happened?
Hinata: I... I overslept in class.
Daichi: I would make you do extra work, but you already do that daily and I don't want to over-work you, so I'll let it slide THIS time. Don't be late again!
Hinata: Thank you, Senpai! I promise I won't be late again!

After warming up, I went over to Suga, trying to forget Kageyama.

Hinata: Suga-senpai, can you set for me?
Suga: Huh-? Don't get me wrong, I'm happy you want to practice with me, but you always practice with Kageyama?
Hinata: I... Wanted to try with you! You're wayyy nicer!

I didn't realize my voice was a little cranky from crying. Suga seemed a little suspicious of my voice cracks, but he didn't question it. We started to practice spiking, but I wasn't doing well. I couldn't concentrate at all. Kageyama was the only thing on my mind, those words he said to me... With that face... When he rejected me... I couldn't take it anymore! I wanted to scream!

Suga: That's it! Are you okay, Shōyo?
Hinata: Huh? Yeah, I'm totally fine! Why do you ask?
Suga: First of all, you've been staring at that volleyball in your arms for a while, your eyes are puffy and red, you're not concentrated and your voice sounds like you've been crying. What happened?
Hinata: Nothing happened! I'm okay, really!
Suga: Shōyo... You can talk to me, I will listen.
Hinata: You'll hate me too! I don't want you to hate me! I wouldn't be able to handle more...
Suga: I could never hate you! Hinata Shōyo, I need you to be happy. Not only because of volleyball, but because I care about you.
Hinata: Please... Don't hate me... I... I confessed my feelings to Kageyama, but he rejected me, because he's straight!