14 & Pregnant Season TWO

Part 53

Yn Pov
As much as I was really still hurting about the whole miscarriage I had to continue on with my tour. Tonight we had to do a rush flight to Atlanta because I got a email to perform at an Awards Ceremony. It was last minute so of course my whole crew was rushing. I really didn't feel like being rushed because I was still unstable but hey,that's work for ya.

Tonight we settled on that I was performing my song "XO". It was wrote for my fans and I figured that tonight I would need all the XO's I could get.

This Award performance wasn't plan. So right after this I have to catch a flight to New York. Just to fly right back here in 2 days to perform my actual concert here in Atlanta. So I kind of have a busy schedule. Somewhere in that I have to make time for lourdes.

Anyways drew still doesn't know about the baby. Nobody knows except my manager and lourdes. I really don't want anybody to know. I mean they know about the Twins but not this one. I don't think I'm going to tell them either. I just want to forget about it. Even though I wasn't fully ready for a child, but a child is a child. Knowing you have a little human being in your body is amazing. Of course your going to sprout love for it. And it sucks for me because I didn't know... And yet I still love it and that's what hurts the most. Loving something you can't have here with you physically...

I was backstage getting ready. I already had my makeup and dress on. My hair was curled already too. All they had to do was hook my mic and things up. While they were doing that I was just starting at the blank wall. I could tell some people notice me being off lately. I already know they aren't going to ask about it. They all think that you never suppose to question the "Boss" but sometimes you want somebody to ask you how you feel. I could always count on my lourdes for that.

Lourdes was sitting on the couch eating Doritos in her pajamas. I had already gotten her bath up and ready for bed. It's 11:30 P.M. now and we aren't going to be able to leave until 12:14 A.M. and we are basically going to spend most of our night on a plane ride and I just knew she was going to be sleep by then. I know she isn't going to fall asleep during my little time onstage because she likes to stand backstage and watch me. Maybe one day I'll bring her on with me.

The director knocked on my door and said they're ready for me. My fashion designer picked up the bottom of my long dress. Lourdes slipped her tiny feet in her night slumbers and grabbed my hand. As we walked down the tiny hall my people were doing last minute touch ups while I practice my vocals and whispered the words to "XO" to myself. We made it to the stage and I let lourdes hand go.

Lo- Good luck mommy! *Smiles*

I kissed her cheek and got set in my place. They counted down to 1 and that's when I appeared on the stage. That's when I started.

(A/ N sorry I'm late. I've been really busy with school! 😩)