My insane obsession

Part 14

It was in 2008, the most foolish decision he could have made. Garou decided to leave our production company to venture out alone on his English-language career project. The discussion with René was terrible. I feared for their friendship. 

That meant a lot to him and to our company. But above all, it meant a lot to me. Leaving our production company, he would leave our private life too. And I would see him less and less. Didn't he realize that? Didn't he see what you were doing to me? 

Since February on the road with the "Taking Chances Tour" I was already exhausted. Stressed, tired, needing time. I hadn't seen him in months. I didn't feel his body on mine, his arms, his kisses ..... and now I would see him under those conditions. 

The day was August 22, 2008. It was commemorating the 400th anniversary of Quebec City. I would do a concert organized by the city in the Plains of Abraham, and receive several guests on stage. In the morning the sound check with the artists. I went straight to the stage because I didn't want to meet him in the dressing room and give him a chance to talk. I was angry!  

I did the whole rehearsal without even looking him in the face. But at the end of the sound check, I screwed up in my dressing room instead of leaving the park immediately. And it was there that he surprised me. 

G: - Why all this hostility? 

C: - You know well why. 

G: - Céline, please don't be like this, let's talk ..... 

C: - This is not the time or place for this. 

G: - You know very well that nothing changes between us! 

C: - And you know this is not true. Only I don't want to discuss this. I am very hurt by you. You disappointed me a lot, Garou. Excuse me that I need to rest, I have a show to give at night.  

I left without looking back. I didn't want him to see me crying.At night, stressed by the situation, the flu that had been around for a few days hit me. And that's how I went to the show. My entire performance at the concert was horrendous. I felt like a garbage. I know I didn't do my best and that my voice didn't sound perfect, but I did the best I could.And the presentation with him? My God, what torture! I didn't want to look at him, but I needed to play my role. I needed to give charm to the music and not let the audience see what I was feeling.

"And if you think it's over
Never It's just a break, a breath
After the dangers
And if you think I'll forget you
Listen
Open your body to the winds of the night "

Damn music! Damn the lyrics! I looked at him, he looked at me with an open smile, passionate eyes. I faltered. I ran a hand over his face, he kissed her. why does he do this? Why does he have to be affectionate? It would be so much easier to forget him if he was insensitive ...In the last song, with my idols Jean-Pierre Ferland and Ginette Reno, I couldn't contain my tears, and I ended up being supported by Ginette, bursting into tears on stage ... what a shame!

After the show was over, I greeted some people in the backstage, but I passed him without hugging him. I couldn't, not there, I was going to collapse. I just made a sign that I would call him, just to disguise it for other people, because it was not their presence, nor would I look at him.I ran out of the place, got in the car and left. I traveled quietly beside René, I couldn't open my mouth, otherwise he would understand my condition. I just thought about the next day, what our meeting at the production company would be like.

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Montreal, 23 August 2008.

I barely slept at night. I just thought of him. Failing that he makes me. How it would be going forward. I turned from side to side on the bed, restless. I don't even know what time I fell asleep.The next morning, meeting at the production company in downtown Montreal. I needed to be well. I wanted to restore my condition, my figure. I had a nice breakfast and then a relaxing bath. I dressed up carefully, putting on a light pearl satin dress. I wanted to look fresh.

I went down to the living room and asked one of the employees for René.

E: - Monsieur Angélil is already waiting for you in the car, Madame.

C: - Ah, okay! Thanks.

Weird, he didn't even say good morning. He's as nervous about this meeting as I am. Without René knowing, this meeting would define our future. Garou's breach of contract would be signed, and my heart would be broken as well.

I got into the car, trying to hide my nervousness.

C: - Bonjour, mon amour!

R: - Bonjour. Sleep well?

C: - Not much. This flu is bothering me.

R: - Are you taking the prescribed medication?

C: - Yes, of course.

R: - You'll be fine soon, don't worry.

C: - But I have a show tomorrow!

R: - Try to speak as little as possible and after we return home, you rest.

Not speaking, he doesn't know how happy I was about it. I didn't want to look at anyone at all.

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