My insane obsession

Part 18

Paris, November 2012. 

In Paris we live the happiest moments of our lives. We love each other like never before. We had never spent so much time together. They were nights of infinite love.Garou stayed at the same hotel as me, and every night I managed to escape. My suite was so big, it was divided into several rooms. René and I didn't sleep in the same room, that was our custom. The rooms were even quite distant. Every night after everyone had fallen asleep, I would get up and hide out. Nobody noticed anything, but if they did, I didn't even care anymore. I wanted to be happy.

I didn't even complain about René to Pierre anymore. I didn't want to see him worried and lately he was threatening to take satisfaction from René, which made me full of fear. René is getting worse and worse. He's always involved with his weird friends, with secret conversations that I can't participate. When I get close they go out or change the subject. I fear for what he may be doing. I'm even afraid to imagine.

A month went by flying! I didn't want to leave heaven. But it was necessary to return. I had my commitments in America. I had to go back to my home, my life, my routine. We promise to see each other forever, but of course we can't keep our word. He went to Vegas a few times, but his schedule was complicated, dividing himself between the recordings of his fixed TV program and the shows in Europe, as well as the visits he made to his daughter Émilie, in Canada.

Time passed and he got a girl, they are dating steadily. I still don't understand what he intends with that ...

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Paris, November 2013.

Here I am in Paris again, a year later. Garou and I haven't been able to see each other very often during this period because he is living in Paris and I in Vegas, but he has been going to the USA more often to see me but now he become engaged to his girlfriend. A cold and meaningless relationship, which he seems to insist on to keep up appearances or even to irritate me. He is not satisfied with the fact that I have not separated from René yet. This is so painful for me. I want him so much .... as I would like to throw it all away, not care about the consequences and throw myself in the arms of passion, everything to be with him! But I can not. I cannot disconnect from a finished story, from a past. For everything I lived with René and everything he represents in my life. And there are the boys ... and my career.

The truth is, I'm afraid. I have more courage to keep my affair with secret meetings, than to free myself from a falsehood. This double life consumes me. I need to put an end to this. And now it may be a good opportunity, as I will definitely see him here in Paris!

I had already been in the city for two days and he still hadn't called me. I was finding it strange and I was getting worried. But as I was very busy with tv shows recordings, I still hadn't had time to call him.

Today would be the recording of Stéphane Bern's tv show and I was already warned that it would be a long recording that would probably take from the afternoon until the wee hours of the night. However, I did not know the script for the tv show, something unusual to happen generally.

To my surprise, I was returning from a small interview to a local magazine, when I entered my hotel room and there was Stéphane Bern, with a book in his hands that he said was the book of my life, and that the tv show would be a tribute with a retrospective of my career and personal life.

During the recording, several artists paid me homage, alternating with old images that were broadcast on the big screen. Many artists sang to me, beautiful interpretations that left me very moved. But what was my surprise when Stéphane announced that my song "River Deep Mountain High" would be performed in my honor by Garou! I did not contain my excitement, which must have been obvious in the video.And how beautiful he was! A delight to enjoy him. My desire was to run, invade the stage and kiss him! Have you ever thought, how crazy?

Then he came to the couch to be interviewed. We could barely hide our joy. I probably must have said something wrong that I don't remember (laughs).

From then on my mood changed. With each song, I sang for him, I danced just for him. I knew you were watching me from the dressing room.

Until it was time for a big break that would be in the recording.I was in my dressing room, just with my makeup artist, who was finishing some finishing touches. When she was done, she said she was going to the bathroom and left. At that moment, he came in and locked the door.

C: -You are crazy! What are you doing?

G: -I miss you so much, I had to see you.

C: -No, you're crazy. Someone can knock on the door.

G: -Let them knock. I need to have you here and now. You seduced me by watching you the whole time!

He already grabbed me and kissed me.

C: -No, it's crazy! - I said, dropping my arms.

G: -Yes, but we will not have another opportunity. Your schedule is full and René is always with you!

C: -It's because he's my husband.

G: -If I were your husband, it didn't have to be that way.

C: -I know. I am determined to end this.

G: -Really?

C: - Really. As soon as I get back from this trip, I'm done with it.

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