'Meeting You Was By Fate. Becoming Your Friend Was By Choice. But, Falling In Love With You Was Beyond My Control.'
Lucy is your average college sophomore. Working hard to keep a 4.0 and still trying to enjoy herself. Art is her major and painting i...
I don't need therapy. I need a hug. _____________________________________________________________________________
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I've been avoiding Michael since Saturday morning. Since I left his dorm. I never texted him when I told him I would. I'm scared. I stayed the night at Zay's place. Now it's Monday and I gotta get back to school. I gotta face Michael but, I'm so scared. Knowing that we kissed is scaring me. What did I tell him that night? Did I tell him I liked him? Did I kiss him first? Did he only kiss me back because he's a guy or because he was drunk? I'm scared to find out the truth. I don't want to lose what we have. Did he even tell Marlon about Alejandro and Lena? Does he hate me now? I wish I could remember our kiss. I wish I could remember the things that took place that night. He was really sweet for protecting me like he did. He didn't even know who he was but still wanted to protect m. Does our friendship mean that much to him? I know I'm wasting my time falling for him. But, he makes it so easy. When I first saw him. I just knew he was different. I want to know the part of him he doesn't show anyone. I want to know him like no one has ever known. But, why? Why do I simply crave his time and attention? We are just friends. I love Alejandro and Lena to death. Despite their secrets but, I don't want them around all the time. What do I do?
I had no reason to go to my dorm. I had spare clothes at Zay's house. So I skipped Lena's questions. Skipped meeting everyone in the student lounge for breakfast. I skipped passed Michael's texts. I didn't even have the heart to read what he wrote. I'm too afraid. This is all too much for me. But, yet I asked Aiden to check him out. To see if he's worth liking. But, look at what I am doing. I'm running away from him from my problems. I never ran from my problems before. But, Liking Michael scares. These feelings he makes me feel. The way my heart thumps away for him. Especially when he smiles. How his beautiful brown eyes bore into my very soul. How he watches my every movement with those doe eyes. More beautiful than any sunset. He's my best friend but, I'm scared to want him more. When I know I already do. But, Quinn broke me. He something from me that I can never get back. His face still haunts my dreams.
I waited. I waited till fewer students filled the campus grounds. I waited till I knew he was inside to make my way to class. I'm not one for being late but, at this moment my fear was winning. I slowly walked down the path that leads to the art building. I sigh heavily before pushing myself through the charcoal-colored door. Into the now quiet halls. I slowly make my way down the hall that seems to get longer at the pace I walked. The sound of my thick heels clicked against the laminated tile floor. Only made my heart beat faster and the butterflies flutter through my entire body. Goosebumps invaded my skin as my shaky hand gripped the door handle to my first class of the day. I took a deep breath before swallowing the dry lump in my throat. The door slowly creaked open as I felt my heartbeat beat through my whole body. I just wanted to scream, run away, disappear. Anything to get away from all these staring eyes. Especially Michael's. I bite my lip nervously as I pull at the ends of my jean jacket.
