make it with u//ryeji ft. itzy

take control

(evening class)

RYU POV
our night dance lesson is almost over. i'm really not in the mood to perform my best tonight, the whole squad isn't too. i've been thinking about how can i say everything to them, how i can explain the guilt within me 'cause i made them feel bad. i jsut want this to be over, right now please.

as if God heard my plead, our teacher's phone beeped with notifs. all of us watched her every movement towards her device, looking at her phone, she have this unreadable expression. well? cut the suspense shit, please.

"seems like u're all lucky tonight from suffering for two more hours. i'll have to dismiss u early, it's an emergency. talk about ur performance next week with ur groupmates to avoid any misunderstanding, arrasseo?" grabbing her stuff as she heads to the door, waiting for our response before completely leaving. yeah, we're being dismissed 2 hours early- 10pm.

"ne, kamsahamnida teacher-nim!" with that being said, she left.

i grabbed my towel and wiped my body before picking up my hoodie and turning to leave. i can feel their eyes on me, waiting for me to notice them. i didn't spare them a glance, i just walked straight out of the room. not because i'm mad or smth, i can't just bring my self to ask them for a talk right there. i need to at least change my shirt first and breath a couple of times to release the negative forces within me right now.

i'm almost at my room when i took my phone from my pocket to message them in our gc. i can ask for a talk, just not physically. i'll just invite them over 'cause idk what else to say, except for the needed explanation.

CHAOS SQUAD

ShinRyujin
don't rest yet, come over for a bit.
read by maknae_shin, Lee_chaeRyeong, and ~Juliaaaaaaaa

hmm, they just left me on read. they must be pissed at my outburst. great, the tables have turned. i guess, i have to make it up to three crackheads. i'm losing a grip of my self. i've never been like this before, i've never dealt with such mixed feelings and sudden outburst or- in the midst of my internal battle, i heard a knock. not moving from my bed to make sure i'm not crazy yet to hear sounds, a knock is heard again. it was followed by a faint call to my name. "Ryu? it's us. open the door?"

finally standing up, i opened my door and is greeted by three faces with guilt, sadness, and nervousness as their expressions. stepping aside as a cue for them to enter, they walked inside quietly. closing the door, i immediately felt the tension building up amongst us. it is gloomy and uncomfortable.

as i got back to sit on my bed, their eyes landed on me. our eyes just keep looking at each other back and forth 'til i sighed, breaking the tension a bit as they wait for further reactions from me.

"mianhae, i didn't mean to lash out earlier. my sudden frustrations just git the best of me, please don't blame ur acts when u witnessed us being cute awhile ago." i didn't dare to meet their eyes, i couldn't. i kept my head hung low, as habit of mine when smth is up, that they know ofc. i'm close to crying now, i rarely do but like i said i'm losing my grip.

"Ryujinie, look at us. stop that, we're at fault too. mianhae, our Ryujinie." Lia unnie softly said making me look at them. i'm a softie too, Ryujinie is another name i fancy. only them have the right to call me that, especially Lia unnie. she was the one who started it and i like how she calls me with it 'cause it's flowing with protection and care. it's like a barrier or a blanket around me, making me soft. don't get me wrong, it's just unnie-dongsaeng love. we're Ryujisu, we flirt jokingly, like i do to every friend. it's just a bond, she's a great unnie to us and maybe with Yeddeong, they'll be our unnie which means more scolding for us maknae line.

"i'm just really frustrated all of a sudden with crushing on Yeji, why i feel things around her, a bit of ur teasing kinda triggered that, and idk what to do. i'm losing control of my self and no shit, it's only been two days since i met her. i could just be shaken up with the whole crush thing simce it's my first time or i'm just crazy." i rambled while probably looking like a maniac or a soggy mandu since i'm in the verge of tears.

"aw~ yah, old Shin. don't cry, we're here. we'll figure out this together, no need to rush with Yeji unnie. Ryeji should both take their time, she won't like it that u're like this. i can't believe Yeji unnie will be THE ONE for u to look uglier than me." Yuna said while hugging me as comfort and sorry, even including a joke which leads me to smacking her head.

"Ryu, we didn't know. we're rly sorry, let's figure this out together. arrasseo? Ryeong come up to me for a hug that's soon followed by Lia unnie.

"Ryeji all the way, Ryujinie! don't stress about it and take ur time with Yeji-ssi. there's RSO now, just tell us. our Ryujinie is stressing over a girl, she's growing up nowwww!" Lia unnie teased while the others laugh, making my tears retreat as we have our group hug. it feels nice, thinking about it, why am i really taking things too fast and too serious? it's been 2 days, aish!

"so crackheads, truce?" looking up to them as we broke our hug with a smile. they nodded as a response making all of us smile in content. aigooo, what a day.

ok Ryujin, get a hold of your gayness. u're being too flirty, that's why u're taken aback too much with u're first crush.

breath and take control 'cause u're the fucking night fury of JYP.