make it with u//ryeji ft. itzy

member teaser

(02-05-19)

CHAERYEONG POV

debut is just a few days away, meaning teasers are posted again. well, what else could we give to the fans and for the people to notice us? teasers are the only way besides the actual promotion for when we get to actually perform live in front of everyone, including our seniors.

and by seniors, i mean to meet our sunbaenims someday. because when ur an idol, the dream of meeting them is not so impossible anymore. just imagine meeting them thru a same schedule of promotions or maybe at a salon when u're getting ur hair or nails done. there are tons of possibilities where and when we could possibly meet them and even befriend them.

but let's talk about what i actually happening right now and not just the perks of being and idol, even tho i'm still not one. 

the individual teasers have been posted days ago but these images today are just our faces. close-up shots that let's them examine our features and see our makeup vividly.

i had fun shooting these photos along with the members considering it was our first time, we tried to enjoy it as much as possible even if we were nervous if we'll be able to do well.

we're really thankful for the stylist and makeup artists that's working with us throughout the preparation of our debut and maybe they'll be here even after debut.

of course the photographer and production team too, they are patient with us getting used to the various sets as we pose and portray the given concept or emotion told to us.

but it isn't just thank u's for me, i also have my doubts and insecurities.

with the teaser photos being for the people to view and examine, it makes me feel worried.

why? because i don't consider myself beautiful. even tho the members say that i am, i find it hard to accept and embrace. i mean, there are times i look in the mirror and tell myself that i look cute or something but rarely beautiful. that's why i always try and tell my members or the people around me that they are beautiful to make them feel that they really are and not like how i see or feel for my self. 

i've been in the industry for how many years now, i've been with different people with the same dream and goal as mine since i was young. they were nice, talented, and pretty. i am glad to have met them all thru my journey as i strive hard to reach my dream.

but u know, talent isn't enough to be an idol. i might be talented and kind as what everybody around me says or praise but how about the visual part? i don't always get complimented on that part like my dancing, not that i'm wanting or demanding it, it's just that i guess i'm not like those getting complimented at first sight even tho they haven't seen their personality.

i'm not like Yeji unnie that has these sharp feline eyes, scary yet enticing. that's her visual asset besides her sunny smile and v-line, she just attracts people and keeps them drawn to her easily.

i'm not like Lia unnie that has this cold rich elegant girl aura around her, intimidating yet mysterious. she makes u wonder about her personality, then u meet her and it's the complete opposite. her eye-smile will just melt u everytime 'cause of how adorable she actually is.

i'm not like Ryujin that has this cool laid-back vibe, seemingly mean yet attractive. she is flirty and often mean to others but actually protective and caring in her own way. her whisker-dimples and deep voice just makes people fall deeper for her, the girl crush she is.

i'm not like Yuna that has these big doll-eyes, soft yet deep. that's the main reason why she's a visual. her eyes expresses herself clearly, giving off that ball of sunshine Yuna energy.