2.) Unwished

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by spartanbugsaint

by spartanbugsaint

I know Your hand has guided my life
Daddy said You'd intervene when the time came
She was no longer the one I knew
And it hurt as much as I foretold
I knew she'd pull this again
And yet I didn't keep myself safe
You closed the door before
When she blamed me for not being there
When little Abbey passed on
And though I was, and said I'd be there when she returned
And when she did, I sensed the danger of her abandonment
It wasn't a matter of if, but of when
And well, here we are again
It wasn't her leaving that made me angry
But the fact I no longer could trust my own heart
Things were barred from being said and thus were not
And I wish I didn't try again; I wish I set my boundaries then
But I reinstated her as my best friend
I wish I said no; I wish I walked away
I wish I didn't care for her as much as I do
I wish I drew the line so this could've been left unwished
Stargazing, I wish, I wish, these wishing stars are pointless
Because what happened happened
And I didn't set my boundaries
I didn't say no; I didn't walk away
I do care for her as much as I care for a sister
I didn't draw the line; and I'm left wishing to the stars
But I'm here for my future self, I leaving the next round unwished for
I have set my boundaries now
I have said no more;
I'm brushing myself off; and walking away
I do care for her, but I care more for eternity and health
I draw the line; and I'm marching on for a new wish