Parallel Lines

Make It Stop

One Week Later.

After one of the most embarrassing moment of my life, both of us are starting to avoid each other. I know that she's avoiding me. I can already tell by the way she acts or the way she moves as we passed by each other. It was really really sad for me that she doesn't feel the same. I don't know why but I still have this gut that I still want to be close to her or am I just too obsess? Well, I don't know. After that, we just ended. I feel like we ended something we didn't even started.

Maybe the connection.

Geez. Everything is depressing.

I just stare at the window while the sky is getting dark and gloomy. It's about to rain. Even the weather is being united with my feelings. It made me more depressed.

"Hi, are you okay?" I slightly jolted and glanced at my right side and saw Janine, one of my classmates. We're not that close but we used to talk some other time. I also hears that she likes me or some rumors tells that this girl like me which I certainly doubt about.

"Y-Yeah, why?" I asked bluntly and she just stare at me with a slightly worried face.

"Nothing. You seem down since Monday. Is there something wrong?" she asked again

"It's none of your business." I said and looked away.

She suddenly grabbed my wrist and pull the sleeves up on my arm.

"What the hell are you doing to yourself?!" she was shocked as she saw my cuts.

I quickly pull down my sleeves and glared at her. My heart is beating quickly and my hands are trembling, not because of excitement nor nervousness, but because of anger.

"I said, it's none of your business!" I yelled and everyone suddenly looks at me, including Olivia who seem worried. Genuinely worried. She was about to walk towards me when I decided to run away from our class.

Damn it.

I never expect that things would be this messy after the worst situation an admirer like me would be in.

I went straight to the bathroom and weep like a stupid child.

-

"Bro? Are you okay? Paulo's here."

"And Jacob!"

"We're here, bro."

These two stupid assholes.

I unlocked the door and the two of them opened it. They look at me with pityful eyes.

"You can't do this to yourself, bro. Like I've said, we're too young to chase someone who doesn't even like you. Find someone else already, Mike. It's just a crush."

I glared at Jacob and he seem frightened.

"Don't tell me those kind of stuff just because you dated her a long time ago." I said gritting my teeth and clenching my fists.

"Just make yourself busy to other stuff and you might, you know, somehow forget her. But the feeling will still stay, but at least make a change. I know you like her that much, but this is beyond just a simple 'crush' or a simple admirer would do to an innocent girl." Paulo said and it somehow made me calm.

"Don't cut yourself again, bro. That is not cool. Play videogames instead." Jacob said I just shook my head to his fucking idea.

The three of us went out of the bathroom like nothing happened.

I can't deny that I'm still in deep pain and us, avoiding each other doesn't really help my situation at all. I may sound overdramatic, but I really am. I never felt alive as I met her in my entire existence. I know we're too young for this kind of affection, but I want to marry her someday, or even have a family with her. I know that this is not just a 'simple' crush. I really, certainly, love her that much.

"H-Hi, Mike. I'm really sorry about earlier."

As I was daydreaming endlessly again, Janine suddenly joined in our table. My friends looked at me confused, but I know that they will make fun of me, again.

"It's okay. Now go." I said bluntly and look away.

"Bro, just give her a chance!" Cody started and some of my friends are now making fun of me. Geez.

"Just do it." Jacob whispered and I let out an annoyed sigh

"I'll talk to you later."

As I said those words, my friends shouted for joy. And I just can't be happy with them or join their trippings. It's weird and it's literally annoying me. But finally, Janine walk away with a grin on her face.

Does she really believed that I will talk to her? Geez. I should make it up for her. I somehow felt guilty that I yelled at her earlier when she's just concern about me. Everything is just literally annoying since then.

-

I went home after all the tiring activities at school. I want to rest and just let my agony flow like waves in my fucked up head.

"Your adviser called us and you are marked absent for about two days, Mike. We didn't even know that you're absent. Is there a problem?"

I look at them blankly and I can sense that my Dad is about to blow up.

"Don't worry. I'll make it up to you." I said bluntly and walk to my room, left them with confusion in their minds.

I closed the door and crash myself to the bed.

I grab my phone and check my inbox in case someone thinks about me or remembers me.

I'm expecting Olivia.

My phone vibrated and Janine's named popped up. I opened it without hesitance.

Janine: Hi. Are you okay? I'm really sorry about what happened earlier.

I sighed and laid on my back as I type my reply for her message.

Mike: It's okay. I'm sorry for yelling at you earlier in class.

I hit send and she immediately seen my message.

Janine: I understand. I hope you're doing well today.

And for a second, I somehow forgot how sad and lonely I was. I don't have intentions to hurt or toy her. I'm just going to know her better than the rumors about her. I'm not that blind when it comes to understanding people or their behaviors. Well, maybe my heartbreak opened my eyes to see what is unseen.

Mike: I'm doing fine, don't worry. How about you?

She's been typing for a minute now, but she always, immediately seen my message.

Janine: I'm extremely fine now that I have this conversation with you, Mike. I'm glad that you want to talk to me because I want to tell you something.

This is going to be weird.

Mike: What is it?

I felt that she paused for a moment and continue what she's typing.

Janine: I know this may seem weird and sudden and I know that this is not a good timing about this. But I...

Janine: I like you a lot, Mike.

Janine: I just want you to know that I really like you a lot.

My heart rate raise a little as I read her messages back and forth. Is she for real? I never really had a girl that is attracted to me.

Mike: Are you for real? I dont want to play games, Janine. Not this time

Janine: No. I'm serious. I really like you, Mike. I can't stand seeing you sad for I dont know reason. I want to cheer you up if you only let me.

That made me flatter.

I never felt this special in my whole life. Everything moves so quickly. The thought of Olivia somehow fades away, as well as the pain I've been healing for days.

As if, this girl, this unexpected appearance of this girl, slowly heals me.